skyjarr Posted August 23, 2008 Posted August 23, 2008 sooo....ive had this friend for about six years...we became extremely close and considered each other best friends. we would always kiss but it never went any farther til one drunken night and he told me that how much he loved me and how he wanted to be with me but i was in a bad relationship and he had just started one...yet we ended up sleeping together... after that i realized that i had been in love with him for soooo long and i told him but he didnt talk to me for 2 months because he said it was too hard to see me and not be with me and that that night made him love me even more plus he had a girlfriend...we finally became friends again and he moved in with an old ex of mine that was still in love with me (after 5 years) we all got along for a while but it was getting harder and harder for us to deny each other...every night we would stay up and talk and just not go to sleep cause we didnt want to miss each other....(i stayed at their house quite a bit cause we were all friends by now) eventually he told me that his girlfriend was 2nd best and that he wished we could run away with me and then they finally broke up... he told me one day-crying-he would get everything straightened out and prove how much he loved me and that i was all he ever wanted in a woman.... we were together for about a week but she got all crazy about it and told me i had to stay away from him cause they were working on their relationship but i kept hanging with him and my ex hoping he would see that she was just manipulating him and always bitching at him for nothing...finally they were over again and we were both super happy being able to be with each other (WITHOUT my ex knowing of course)...i had never seen either of us as happy and we had plans of moving away together and getting married and having kids and we were both so happy...he asked me out but i had to say "not now" cause he was still living with my seriously psycho ex.... then my ex went through all of his stuff and found letters and ticket stubs from us and he flipped out and there was a huge fight between the three of us because i betrayed him (even though he had sex with my best friend years before when we were still together and right after my dad had died...) i told him that i was in love with the guy and there was nothing that would change that and he told me that the guy was keeping his ex around in case things didnt work out between us..... this guy kept saying how i deserved better than him and that he would never break my heart or lie to me cause we had both known how hurt each other had been in the past....we were open and honest with each other and SOO SOO happy...everyone could see it....but after that fight things got weird-he didnt text as much and didnt seem like he wanted to be with me...then one night he told me he knew things were weird between us but that he loved me more than life itself.... one night i drove past his house cause i was gonna stop by if my ex wasnt there but saw HIS exs car outside after i hadnt heard from him all weekend....he was helping her with "some personal family stuff" and she was psycho and always stopped by but...what the hell well he ignored me for basically 8 months or if he did talk to me he would say that i "didnt deserve him" and that i shouldnt be "jealous he chose her over me" and that he would be "happy if i was out of his life for good"..... at about the 8 month mark i was planning on moving 3000 miles away (since i wasnt moving with him) the day before i left i got a text message from him asking if i had left yet!! what the hell?? then once i got moved and stuff he asked me to get on a plane and come see him...practically begging me to... we talked a bit on the phone about stuff and he told me he just wanted to move on and start life from today and us try and work stuff out but i belived i deserved an explanation...he said he believed we could have back what we had (we were like stupid giddy schoolgirls) but he would give me ultimatiums and act like me not being able to come and see him meant that i hated him and i was a cold hearted bitch....my mom agreed to pay for him to come out here...and he finally agreed!! then he wouldnt agree on a time or length of period to stay and decided he wasnt coming and that he didnt want to be together anymore because i reminded him of all the things he hates in women and that he was sorry then he wanted me to come out just so we could work on our friendship but i couldnt afford it and my mom wouldnt pay for me to go back home....then he said we would probably end up together and that i should get out there...again completely begging....he gave me a date to be out there and when i wasnt he stopped talking to me AGAIN.... i sent him random things here and there for about a week and then he asked me to come out again....he called me and told me he wanted to see me then and there and that he would pay $150 for a ticket for me to come see him i just had to get out there asap-begging AGAIN-i told him tickets werent 150 and he said borrow the money and he would pay it back no matter what the cost... i found a ticket the next day and he seemed taken aback that i had found one so soon...it was $320-then he changed it to say that he meant me borrow the money other than the 150....kinda understandable but he knows i just moved and dont have a job yet AND HE OFFERED....then he wouldnt decide on how long he wanted me there (hes living back with his parents now...THANK GOD) and got frustrated when i wanted to know and said forget it finally we decided on a time and stuff (during my birthday) and suddenly he seems like he really doesnt want me there....he hardly texts me anymore and i havent gotten the money from him yet (hes paying me at least the 150 when i get there) ... when i text him he just seems annoyed and i asked him why he only calls me when hes drunk and he said thats the only time he wants to.... im trying to be positive and think that maybe he is just nervous because he is VERY VERY sensitive even (like i said-best friends for ages) if he does put up a tough guy act and he has had a ton of problems and i know that DEEP DOWN a part of him still loves me but hes told me he doesnt believe in love and that hes not worth loving cause the boy i feel in love with is dead.... uuuuuggggghhhhh-crazily enough this is the SHORT version :/ but ANY insight??? thanx for reading!
Author skyjarr Posted August 23, 2008 Author Posted August 23, 2008 PLEASE RESPOND...i just want some unbiased opinions....i want to believe he loves me because i KNOW him and I KNOW what we had....is he scared.... he said that he swore to himself if he ever got the chance to be with me he would treat me perfect and that he knew he had done far from that.... but he also said he made a mistake about loving me (bull....) he said he wants to be with me but then he acts like im some psycho and a lying backstabber since my ex ALWAYS lies about me because i wont be with him again.... what do i do????
JooLee Posted August 23, 2008 Posted August 23, 2008 move on. this is some twisted thing going on. dont let anyone play you like dat man. he seems like he doesnt know what he wants n he comes to u when he's lonely. dont be fooled.
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