Rollercoasterr Posted August 22, 2008 Posted August 22, 2008 Today is a sucky day. I feel like this is never going to end. It's so unfair to love someone so much that lives so far away from me. All I want to do is be with him, and instead I'm stuck hugging a pillow at night. I see all these happy couples, holding hands, kissing and being all lovey dovey and the first thing I want to do is trip one, if not both of them. Okay, so I'm joking on that last bit, but still. And to make matters worse, he'll be gone on vacation with his family next week and I wont get to talk to him at all. I'm happy he's going on vacay with them, he needs the time to de-stress from school and he hardly ever gets to visit his family in his hometown, but I really will be lost without him. He did promise to take pictures of his vacation for me. It's not necessary, but I do think that it's a very sweet gesture. Kind of like he wants me to feel like I'm there with him, instead of here missing him. So I told him that I'll be taking pictures every day that he's gone so that he'll feel like he didn't miss anything either. And I'm also going to send him a snail mail letter so that when he goes home it will be waiting in his mailbox. I know that while he's gone I'll be trying to keep myself extremely busy. I have plenty of things to do, and some friends I need to hang out with. But being without the tiniest little contact from him for an entire week will be horrid. Horrid, I tell you. Sorry, just needed to rant a bit.
konfuzd Posted August 22, 2008 Posted August 22, 2008 As long as you're not dwelling on it, it's really not that horrid. I'm in an LDR right now with a man who lives 14 hours away. His job requires that he goes out to logging camps for 10-14 days at a time at least once a month. I just keep reminding myself that if we make it through this time, we can make it through pretty near anything. Couples who have it easy all the time with few hurdles to overcome don't appriciate what they have as much as ones who struggle together. Keep your chin up, no guy wants a girl who relies on him for happiness. Make sure you do a lot of fun stuff, so you'll have stories to share with him when he gets back. Trust me, it will earn you points in his eyes.
Author Rollercoasterr Posted August 22, 2008 Author Posted August 22, 2008 The sad thing is, he tells me all the time that he thinks he loves me too much. That he thinks he relies on me way too much for his happiness. So I dont think it's me, it's just something that we've become accustomed to. It sucks, and it probably shouldn't have happened that way, but it did. And I dont really look at it that I rely on him for my happiness. I have plenty of fun on my own, and so does he. It's just that craving to be together, the gut-wrenching longing to talk to one another that brings us home at night and lets us talk for hours about nothing at all. I feel like I'll be losing my best friend for a week, because that's what he is, my best friend. He lives 15 hours away from me right now, but in October I'll be going north to look at a college, and he's going to make the 2 hour trip down to meet me. So we'll have ourselves a nice little vacation together. And then in Jan I'll be moving to said school so we'll only be 2 hours apart. Still farther away than I want to be, but close enough for me not to care so much. Anything is better than the 15 hours and country border that seperates us now.
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