dingoatemybaby Posted August 20, 2008 Posted August 20, 2008 for over a year my wife and i were battling each other.she was mean because of my actions and i was mean because of hers etc. i strongly wanted to feel love and i admit twice i had relashionships with women but no intercourse happened just oral. i felt horrible when i did it but i cant deny that i did it i was hungry for the feeling of someone wanting me i couldnt even think straight plus alot of work stress with starting a new biz(its not an excuse) so we split i moved out i still pay the mortgage she is mean and nasty in text messages then all of a sudden is nice and actually gave me hope for patching things up then oneday shortly asking me for money i get hit with divorce papers for almost a month she has had an attorney and files for full custody child support spousal support says ill flee the country with my son etc. so we have been talking she says she doeant want a divorce wants to make things work wants to grow old with me.i got my hopes up then within a few days she says she wants to legally seperate now she wants to make things work she will put in 100 percent but wants to keep her lawyer and keep the papers filed just have them on hold. i dropped my lawyers paid her bills for this month before she said this i viewed 100 percent as just that starting fresh and giving it my all. she wants to keep lawyers and have everything ready to go at a moments notice. i feel like we both met on the field of battle we dropped our rifles but she picked hers back up and has it to my head the only difference is her fingers not on the trigger but i know its there and im waiting for the bullet. what do i do? how can i trust her if she has everything in place to file at the drop of the hat? how can i let my guard down? and if i cant then how can we reconcile? thanks
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