LovelyStyle Posted August 20, 2008 Posted August 20, 2008 I never thought I'd need medication to get through the day, but it's my life now. Because of years of disappointments and heartbreak, serious relationships that never once led to a marriage, I am on anti-depressants, anti-anxiety and cannabis. And I still cry almost every morning when I wake up and realize that I'm nearly 40 and never married. This isn't about having had a wedding, or about my biological clock, it's about never having found a man who loved me enough to actually partner with me. I don't understand it and I never will! I am an attractive, educated professional woman, who brings a lot to the table, as they say. My heart hurts at what has been lost and what I will apparently never have (a loving husband and partner to share life with), while all around me I see people who have obtained it, at least once, maybe twice. It's scary to think where I'd be if it weren't for the medication.
nowhereman82 Posted August 20, 2008 Posted August 20, 2008 Drop the weed hunny. I look back on my days of getting high and realize the time wasted. The way it made me think, my attitude. Pot is a downer, you know that. So why you going to mix it with anti-depressants and anti-anxiety pills....shoot the anxiety pills are mild tranqs, which is a downer. So now you are taking 2 downers, and 1 pill to help keep you balanced. I understand the anxiety pills, take them myself and you can't do anything about it. But drop the cannabis.
LateBloomer Posted August 20, 2008 Posted August 20, 2008 I've been in therapy on and off for more than twenty years. There have been three key messages from each of the three wonderful people who have tried to help me over the years: 1st. Lots of self realizations. He was an amazing person. Main message at the end, "Pot is not good for you. The sooner you realize it, the better." He suggest meds about 10 years ago because I wasn't really moving forward. Guess what, I hadn't given up pot for more than a few months at a time though. Tried Wellbutrin after a nasty short-term-relationship breakup. Then stopped after about a year. 2nd. Wonderful woman. Basic message was that I need to find better ways to relax. Guess what, I was still smoking and didn't even tell her for a year! Went back on Wellbutrin after a 2 year relationship breakup. Why? It's the only one I ever knew. Effexor (I tried for 2 weeks) had sexual side effects. Tried Effexor again recently, had terrible panic attacks (thats Effexor + Wellbutrin). 3rd. Great guy, current. "If what you're doing ain't working, try something else!" Have only been clean from pot for a month and change. It took a recent breakup for me to take a very close look at all this. Throughout my recent relationship, I've been more obsessive than usual (guess what ... side effect of Wellbutrin) and trouble sleeping (guess what again). The pot made me distracted, not able to focus on conversations, and contributed to a deep seeded ability to hide that I had learned as a child (new realization). Simply put, although they all seemed to help me cope ... they helped make me into NOT ME. Just my story, I understand many people are different. Right now I'm wratcheting down the Wellbutrin, so we'll see. But I feel like I need to instead fill my life with natural ways to cope, because life will continue to throw heavy stuff my way and I want ME to be able to deal with it. It's kind of like learning how to drink coffee w/o sugar. If you do, you'll never regret not having any (sugar). My $0.01.
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