discouraged4ever Posted August 14, 2008 Posted August 14, 2008 I know some of you thought that me texting my STBX scripture was not a wise idea. That I was using God's word out of spite. I just want to share an update on our situation. I had a dream the other night about my h. We were in court and he stood to speak with the judge. As he stood i felt I myself and everyone in the room could see worms eating at his insides. lots and lots of worms. When he spoke, worms poured out of his mouth and they began crawling on his face and eating at him. He also had a black snake coiled tightly around his neck. Ok, for someone who NEVER remembers a dream, this was significant for me so i decided to do something looking into the interpretation of these symbols in my dream. This is what i got. Worms= negativity Worms coming out of the mouth =a seperation of some kind, some went as far as to say it means a seperation from your wife. Snake around the neck= he has not paid his debts and has broken his promises Worms eating flesh= the pre-said punishment for cruel people in the after life. Ok. so yes, i was freaked, but i believe that God was revealing to me what I already knew, that the man i have known and loved was now walking with the devil in his self-seeking, self-serving ways. I shared the dream with h. along with the interpretation. We texted some more, i reminded him of Gods love that nothing could ever seperate him from God etc, etc. we had a long talk yesterday both on the phone and in person. it was the first time in 8 months we have talked with out him getting upset at something i have said. he said that he knew he was doing wrong, and that he needs to be with his family. He does not want to go to court on monday after all. he explained that this all had to do with him really believing i never loved him. that there is no one else. that he thought i would want this and he has been shocked at the fact that i am fighting so hard to keep our M together. he said he is sad. sad with out me and the kids. he says he wants me, but he wants certain things in the M to change. He has a very difficult time expressing his feelings, and he several times had to pause for long periods to come up with a feeling word. he says all the bad stuff he has done and said to me over the last 8 months is because he has been angry, felt rejected and hurt. i am happy, but cautious at the same time. i have been severely hurt over the last 8 months by things he has done and said, and i just dont know. i DO KNOW that GOD is knocking on his heart in a BIG way though and i believe the scripture has been helping. I really do. he told me "I read the stuff you send me and i think and think, and i ask myself why am I doing this, this is so wrong." So mostly that is why I am sharing this story. I just want to PRAISE GOD and give some hope to those of you out there who are waiting for a miracle like myself. Keep the faith. GOD does mighty things. I do not know if this means we will salvage our marriage or not, but i do know that whatever happens, GOD will take care of me. I did tell h that i needed him to see our pastor and if we were going to work on the marriage he had to stop threatening me with D, and had to stop all the court stuff and get in and meet with pastor. he agreed and called his attrny that night to cancel court. We will see what JESUS does.
SingleDad Posted August 14, 2008 Posted August 14, 2008 d4e - I am glad to hear the good news - I am glad things have turned around for you.... My earlier posting was merely a cautionary word to not simply sit back and let God take over the day to day activity of your current situation. But if that works in your favor, then by all means - use whatever works.
quankanne Posted August 14, 2008 Posted August 14, 2008 one of the neatest things I've ever heard was something a coworker said about how she and her husband understood that each was responsible for helping each other get to heaven by modeling their faith. and it makes a certain sense when you think about it: Everything you do confirms or refutes the beliefs (whatever they may be) that you have. Pretty much, you walk the talk or you lose credibility. Especially in matters of faith. it's very encouraging to hear that God has chosen this moment to open your husband's heart, because for him to express himself to you the way he has is nothing short of miraculous, knowing how men and women differ in communication styles. whatever happens within the marriage – reconciliation of final split up – is secondary to the fact that now that he's opened his heart and mind to God, he's going to gain something valuable. so keep encouraging him in his faith because it will help him weather whatever comes y'alls way.
SingleDad Posted August 14, 2008 Posted August 14, 2008 d4e - (pssssh - with your connections - could you put in a good word for me ??) My prayers do not seem to work as well as yours !!
imagine Posted August 14, 2008 Posted August 14, 2008 Way to go D4E I have always been concerned when people say to me "Have faith..." The Bible tells me that faith is a gift of God, so it appears that I can't just run off to the local supermarket and buy some. It is apparent to me that God has used circumstances to increase your faith. There will be many at this forum that cannot appreciate how God's hand has manipulated these events. This can be because that they have not experienced His involvement in their own lives. I have. Therefore I do understand. Many of your experiences may be personal and impossible to share with unbelievers. Don't reveal these. Rather, let the inward peace and strength given to you, be attractive to others that they may seek faith in Jesus Christ. And SD may you be encouraged that God gives us what we need - and not necessarily what we want!
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