BackonTrack Posted August 13, 2008 Posted August 13, 2008 Hello All, Its been about 6 months since my breakup (back in February) It was my first real relationship. It ended in flames. Anyways, 6 months later I am healed, have not heard from the EX. I have moved on, I don't think about her allot anymore. Infact I am beyond over it, but now its like I am back to the person I was with before we met with a little more experience and allot more personal growth. So what do I think now? Well I come to the conclusion that I don't think I cared truely about my EX. It took me 1.3 years to realize I loved her but by then it was to late, she was already cheating on me. I have come to realize my ex didn't want anything from me except to be there for me and I kept her on a leash at arms distance & never really let her in, I didn't even know what i wanted to do with her & when I figured it out it was to late. On that same note, her actions showed what she was truely capeable of so by cheating on me I believed the ex saved me a lifetime of heartache and exposed her true self before we were more interwined or before I popped the question and asked her to marry me. So 6 months later, I am over it, No more crying, no more tearing at love songs, no more thinking about what could of been. I have come to accept the fact that its over & I'm never getting it back. I have also come to accept the fact that we were both at wrong in this relationship, the ex seems to think otherwise though, I took the majority of the blame for the demise even though it wasn't all my fault. So why am I writing this post? Partly because I have nothing better to do and partly because I have nothing better to do. So in the end, what have I learn, I learned that communication is key, that my ex was not a good person. At this point in time, I don't want her back more than I want her back and as the day goes by, her actions becomes even more unforgiveable in my eyes which causes me to put up a iron curtain around my heart in regards to her. I find that I have lost the little bit of love left in my heart towards her and I no longer want her back. It isn't worth it.
nowhereman82 Posted August 13, 2008 Posted August 13, 2008 *standing ovation* Good to hear! Now more time to spend loving yourself
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