JooLee Posted August 10, 2008 Posted August 10, 2008 i dont know why but im feeling bummed because all my friends relationships are going well and some even got new guys. dont get me wrong im happy for them but i guess im feeling jealous and i keep asking myself how come they manage to get a hold of their relationship when mine turned out really bad. and when i start feeling this way , i miss my ex more than ever. do you guys sometimes feels this way too or am i just being ridiculous???
journey1 Posted August 10, 2008 Posted August 10, 2008 i feel it everyday!! Everyone I know is having a baby, getting married or just engaged. And I was supposed to be married in 5 days. It hurts and its depressing. it makes you pity yourself and say why me??? Lets tryto think we too will have a wonderful loving lasting relationship!!
HopeDiesLast Posted August 10, 2008 Posted August 10, 2008 Trust me, JooLee, you're not crazy. I went to my college roommate's wedding and i was soooo happy for her and all i could think was, "why can't things work out for me?". I'm having a bad day today....Sundays are so bad for me for some reason. There's nothing ridiculous about your feeling! We all do it- some admit it, some dont.
Author JooLee Posted August 10, 2008 Author Posted August 10, 2008 hey journey, im so sorry to hear that. that is so cruel!! what kind of human being do that to a person!!! but you know what... you are going to get through this and then HE'll be the one regretting of what he has missed up upon. Hope, just hang in there, your sundays will get better. try to focus on yourself and not what he's doing. i found that helps is it just me or do you guys think that we jus keep choosing all the men with EMPTY words!! tomorrow im going back to college and im so anxious about if i bump into him. argh i hate him so much but i love him to bits at the same time! whyy whyy whhyyy?
HopeDiesLast Posted August 10, 2008 Posted August 10, 2008 i dont think i chose the wrong man. he had some traits i wasnt crazy about- but i loved alot of things about him. i just think HE doesnt know what he wants. and he can't drag me through the process of figuring it out- unless hes already figured it out. i dont know. i wish i knew. i just want him to realize- like the colby caleit song. but he may never. and THAT is what makes me completely depressed. i hate that hes doing this. i hate that this is happening. i hate that he doesnt even call. but i love him so much.
Author JooLee Posted August 10, 2008 Author Posted August 10, 2008 Hope, how long has it been since the break up? its really cruel when they just throw u away like dat like u dont mean anything. its completely heartless. i like to believe that he's miserable himself (altho it might not be true) but its a comfort
HopeDiesLast Posted August 10, 2008 Posted August 10, 2008 i hope he's miserable. its been 2 months JooLee. heard hes seeing someone. he doesnt call. i havent called in a month. i text him the other day asking if we could talk and he never answered. im dying inside. this isnt him. what happend to my bf??? why is he doing this??? not even the courtesy to text me back and say he doesnt wanna talk.
Author JooLee Posted August 10, 2008 Author Posted August 10, 2008 i wish i had the answer to this but i dont. i dont understand it myself since im going through the same thing. was it a bad break up?
journey1 Posted August 10, 2008 Posted August 10, 2008 I was engaged for 5 months when I strated to feel a little sense of "this guys is not giving me what I need and want" he would always be tired, never spent time with me, irritated cause I had the summer off as a teacher and I was always full of energy and wanted to do things with HIM) But then I became close to another guy and he was gorgeous and he sort of swept me away from my fiance cause he was everything fiance wasnt and was not giving me, so I initially ended it with fiance. However, I tried to talk to him (fiance)and tell him we were drifting and that I was feeling closer to another man. He didnt care enough to give me what it needed. So I ended it and started to date the other guy. But after 3 months I realized I rather have my fiance and his flaws than this guy. It made me miss and love him. He tried to come back here and there during those 3 months but I wasnt ready, I was still deciding. But unlike guys, I wanted the attention and the calls and the texts from fiance, i dint want NC. If he would have tried I would have never left. by the time I came back he had met someone....then he wanted me back and it just didnt take off. I think he was still hanging on to her.. its so messed up and beyond repair. I miss the man who proposed. the reality is, he is not that guy anymore....I will NEVER have that with him again. It kills me to think of another girl falling inlove wih him and getting all the passiona nd love that I experienced with him!
HopeDiesLast Posted August 10, 2008 Posted August 10, 2008 JooLee- well define bad? haha....he just blindsided me. we came back from vacation and things were a little off but it just felt like another one of our bumps in the road. i NEVER expected this. i just didnt. even looking back now there was really nothing traumatizing that happened. and he told me that he wasnt sure he wants what he used to (marriage, kids, etc.) bc he thought he'd be ready for that at 26 and now hes there and he's just not ready. then he told me he didnt feel as excited as he once did about making plans with me....that maybe we were just too different. he said drinking is a big part of who he is and the fact i out grew it- he didnt know if that was a deal breaker. he said he didnt want to try anymore and his gut was telling him to break up with me- and if in time he realizes he made the biggest mistake of his life, he will come crawling back to me begging for forgiveness. That might have been the worst day of my life.
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