i just resisted the urge to do absolutely immature things to his facebook

[extraordinarymachine]

because I discovered the password, saved on my laptop.

 

and while the idea of snooping through his things and doing embarrassing things to his profile overnight that he likely wouldn't see till much damage has been done is tempting, it doesn't fit with my personal ethic at all. it's just not right. i'm not that kind of person. i want the high road.

 

and i know i wouldn't have no matter what because of all those reasons, but there's a little part of me that wants a pat on the back cause it would have been so easy.

 

and now of course i feel like a hole has been torn in my chest all over again, just like any weird/new/unusual information or indirect contact with him seems to do. (NC for a little over a month, i'm trying not to count.)

 

im such a strong person but he just ruins me, capsizes me. i don't know. we'll all get through it, right? ughhh who is this whiny, pathetic girl i've turned into? im pissing myself off even being here and posting this.

 

how do you deal??!

[pickingupthepieces]

Well we better get through it or I'm F***** I just got off of his FB.. just to look why I don't know, I get upset just looking at it!

 

You didn't touch his facebook.. that is awesome first of all.. I in all honesty probably would of looked .. not changed anything but looked.. just to see and then I would probably be upset in what I found! LOL So it would serve me right! One month is a long time.. well would be for me so GOOD for you! It is so hard.... but it can only get better.. or so I'm told!

[0hpenelope]

because I discovered the password, saved on my laptop.

 

and while the idea of snooping through his things and doing embarrassing things to his profile overnight that he likely wouldn't see till much damage has been done is tempting, it doesn't fit with my personal ethic at all. it's just not right. i'm not that kind of person. i want the high road.

 

and i know i wouldn't have no matter what because of all those reasons, but there's a little part of me that wants a pat on the back cause it would have been so easy.

 

and now of course i feel like a hole has been torn in my chest all over again, just like any weird/new/unusual information or indirect contact with him seems to do. (NC for a little over a month, i'm trying not to count.)

 

im such a strong person but he just ruins me, capsizes me. i don't know. we'll all get through it, right? ughhh who is this whiny, pathetic girl i've turned into? im pissing myself off even being here and posting this.

 

how do you deal??!

 

You stayed classy. Focus on that: stay classy.

 

I was the crazy ex-gf. And for some reason, Lawrence put up with it because he's decided that he can handle it.

 

It's a damn shame because I feel ashamed of how I conducted myself when I was around him after the break-up. I was jealous, sad, temperamental... it was everything that is great about me turning a complete 180º. Wow... I wouldn't get back with someone crazy. I don't blame him. That's my only regret: that something beautiful I expressed in such an ugly way. I'm not proud of this. I am sad that I left him with such ugly memories of me as well, but I can't take that back.

 

I'm not jealous when I'm with my guy. I'm jealous when I'm not with him. A little weird, but that's how it goes with me.

 

I gave it to him too, in the end. Lawrence wanted me out of his life, well... I'm out then. I will stay gone. I've burned my bridges and I haven't gone back. I can deal with longing, missing, yearning, aching, the whole deal... but I don't want to deal with the uncertainties of being with him.

[Peter_pan]

look people, delete them from your life. its what i did, it makes it easier on YOU!!

 

as soon as i heard she had a new bf, i deleted her from everything

[roghornio]

I simply stop looking at facebook - yeah shes still my "friend" on there.. as are another 3 girls ive been out with and in fact a fair few ive slep with LOL... in fact thats a recipe for disaster, thinking about it... hmmm, maybe im due some friend pruning... anways if someone sends me a message i get a email alert - thats the only time i login to faceboook, and its straight to the email page. 2 of my exes are proper facebok fanatics posting anythign and everything up there... im not sure how i would handle it now, but when i stopped using it the last thing i wanted was to see an upadate every ten mins telling me where she had either been the night before, where she was going that night, who with and if i was really lucky several pictures from said evenings.

 

I dont want to delete my facebook casue when i leave to move abroad i will probably rely on it to keep in touch with family and friends. So not sure what ill do - hopefully by then i won;t actually care.

[lizamcfc]

You're a better person than me, my ex and I knew each other's passwords... So the day after our breakup I tried to get on his... and lo and behold he'd changed his passwords! But if he hadn't I'd have done something crazy, no doubt. So well done to you

Facebook is evil - I deleted him from msn but everytime I see he's online on Facebook I feel the urge to contact him. Can't delete him from it.... its too much! And his status updates are horrible