sab Posted August 7, 2008 Posted August 7, 2008 I am understanding the situation people are going through with break ups etc not just through empathy but from being in the exact position. It kind of help to kmow I am not alone but after a 23 year relationship, OK maybe not the best in the world but I never had reson to think my bloke was on the edge. So I did not over react or any thing when he started mentioning a female friend he had, no call me stup but he said she was just a friend and I sailed along under a cloud of blind ness and just let them have a good time. They went out to varios places doing various stuff from just shoping together to even going on a day trip abroad. Suddenly like a bolt from the blue I suddenly seemed to catch on to the circumstances. I feel like I must have been in a coma or some thing I just cant beleive I was so stupid and blind. As expected I got really upset screamed ranted the usual stuff and all he seemed to say to me was well we wern't having sex, I thiught it would be OK to have a friend. And althought I must have felt this way too in the beging, I went mad and chucked him out. Now I am feeling worse than I have ever felt in my life this is abcolute agony, he comes around must days and just picks up one or two small items, its weird but it terrible feals like a slow death. I expect he is taking the p*ss but I feel so terible I cant muster the strenth to try and harder to push for answers as he says he has none. I am so totally confused and in so much pain I just dont know were to turn. I feel guilty posting thie on here but I am in so much pain I am desperate to do anything just to try and ease this pain or make it stop for a while. Oh God it horts so much I cant cope with feeling like this
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