journey1 Posted August 3, 2008 Posted August 3, 2008 Over this past year going through this breakup there was a point I couldnt eat, sleep, sit, think. My head was spinning....But I am still going through the breakup but now I can eat and sleep. I feel a loss and a sad overall feeling about life but I dont feel sick anymore. Does this mean I am progressing or I am just going to crash again?? Its been a week and I dont want to talk to him, I have said a billion things and nothing has helped. Talking to him will lead me to nowhere unless he initiates right?? Because then and only then does that mean he is possibly ready to try this again. Also, I feel like I am starting to recognize where he fell short and lacked things that I needed. I may not be able to deal with that now, my energy level is low. I am not able to tolerate as much now. I have been weakened, there is less of a fight in me. My biggest thing now is learning to deal with the fact that in 2 weeks we were to be married and now we're not. Dealing with the fact that he may marry someone else in the future and have someone elses baby. These things are in the far future, but it is what kills me. i am not ready to lose him completely:sick:
tinke Posted August 4, 2008 Posted August 4, 2008 The post is a bit confusing...you said over the past year you've been dealing with the break-up, and then...it's been a week and you don't feel like speaking to him. So, have you stayed in contact? Regardless, the healing is a process and there are surely the ups and downs with this. Try to give yourself credit for what may seem like a small feat. Even the fact that you have now progressed to keeping food down and sleeping is HUGE! I understand all too well the physical impact as well as the emotional. I recall the disbelief, the numbness, the hurt Trust that in time, the pain will lessen, the intensity will weaken, and you will begin to feel again. Feel that he lost, also. Funny how time changes things, initially I too, was physically sick over it and now, I think...HE has lost me. be well.
Author journey1 Posted August 4, 2008 Author Posted August 4, 2008 Thank you!! I wasnt clear sorry. I had writeen a previous thread. we ended the enagement and I was sick then. we always kept in touch while he saw other girls and I other men. But this summer we spent all of our time togtehr. I wanted more and he couldnt offer it. Probably caus ehe was still seeing the other girl (I suspect) no one lets you go without someone else there to catch them right?? After he said he didnt know what he wanted, I said this is your last text and that was it. This time I am fed up and hurt and annoyed and last time whe the engagement ended I was devastated! Oh well
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