gummybear Posted August 3, 2008 Posted August 3, 2008 If you all remember the guy I met online, well we've been talking for the past 2 weeks or so even though I told him that I don't want an LDR (after all, we only been on 3 dates). Last weekend I saw him for the 5th time as a friend and well we had our arms around each other the whole time while watching a concert. It felt kind of sad and bittersweet and I think he felt the same way because we knew that I'd be leaving soon. At one point, the band sang 'it's time for a change' and he looked at me and said 'it's time for a change' and I said 'it's time for a change??' with a curious face. He didn't say anything. We hugged goodbye after he dropped me off after the concert and I wanted to kiss him but didn't and we didn't kiss. I haven't seen him since last weekend because I had been out of town for the past week (including this weekend) to find a job but we talk all the time via IM or phone, with him being the one to initiate it 90% of the time. On Thursday I quit from my job and I told him and also said I'd probably being moving away next weekend and it was like everything is happening so fast. We agreed to meet up when I go back to town to move my stuff and I said 'after all, I do owe you your bday present' and he said 'well, it's not about the present...I just want to see you' *cries* That might be the last time we'll ever see each other again. I won't lie, I really missed him the past week and especially this weekend because this is the first weekend I've gone without seeing him. But then maybe I'm just sad because I will have no friends once I'm in the other town? I'm suddenly pondering LDR even though I've told him before in a really harsh way that 'dont have hope, I've already decided that I don't want an LRD'. I'm too embarrassed to take that back, but at the time it was the only way to keep me sane so I can focus on my job search. Now that I have a job prospect, I'm thinking about the LDR as a possiblity. We've only seen each other 5 times and I've only known him for a month though. Is this feasible? Should I just let it go? I know a huge reason I said no is because I'm scared of getting hurt.
Author gummybear Posted August 3, 2008 Author Posted August 3, 2008 Anyone at all?? By the way, we would be a 7 hour drive (one hour plane ride) away...
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