carrie3107 Posted July 29, 2008 Posted July 29, 2008 Or that how it seems to be...... Was out with my mates on Sunday and ended up spending most of the time by myself. (The rest are in couples and seem to go into small groups), so i was left on my own... Getting too use to being on my own so when people come upto me its very small talk. Ive been a bit offish and moody since sunday... It didnt help that its my birthday on thursday, so in a way i was starting to celebrate it or trying to and to be honest i hate this week (always hated my birthday week cause of other issues that i have had to deal with since a child). Doesnt help that im thinking about birthday last year and if the ex will text. (I know he wont but at the same time its in the back of my mind). Out with my mates on Wednesday but not looking forward to it....
sultry33 Posted July 29, 2008 Posted July 29, 2008 Or that how it seems to be...... Was out with my mates on Sunday and ended up spending most of the time by myself. (The rest are in couples and seem to go into small groups), so i was left on my own... Getting too use to being on my own so when people come upto me its very small talk. Ive been a bit offish and moody since sunday... It didnt help that its my birthday on thursday, so in a way i was starting to celebrate it or trying to and to be honest i hate this week (always hated my birthday week cause of other issues that i have had to deal with since a child). Doesnt help that im thinking about birthday last year and if the ex will text. (I know he wont but at the same time its in the back of my mind). Out with my mates on Wednesday but not looking forward to it.... hi carrie, i had this on the 20th july.. went out with my mates, one was having some "drama" with her bf.. so my birthday kind of got overlooked.. i was realived to be honest as like you in my mind i was wondering.. what if he texts? what if he doesnt? how will i reply.. will i reply.. well he didnt text.. can say that hurt alot .. but then again i think if he was trully over us he would have texted.. i dont know:confused: but on my actual birthday my kids made it extra special and i ended up having a great day. on the being single side.. i actually like it.. strange but its true.. my friend is having all this drama and i think thank god im not having to deal with all that;) i went out to the club on my own on sat.. brave huh? i had loads of drinks bought for me and only spent £5 on drinks.. had a great time .. did give the guy i like alot my num.. if i did it right:D but i got really nervous and said "take it quick.. quick!" so far he has not texted despite looking at me for months an saying im lovely.. so friday will be interesting lol my mate asked if i be bothered about him and i said not really.. dont know if i can be assed with the bf/gf side.. bit fun is different;) you have to try and look on the positive side about being single.. best to be alone and have some fun then be with an ass
Author carrie3107 Posted July 29, 2008 Author Posted July 29, 2008 Cheers Sultry Glad to know someone else was in the same boat.... i went out to the club on my own on sat.. brave huh? i had loads of drinks bought for me and only spent £5 on drinks.. had a great time .. did give the guy i like alot my num.. if i did it right:D Proud of you for doing this i would never do it..... on the being single side.. i actually like it.. strange but its true.. my friend is having all this drama and i think thank god im not having to deal with all that;) I guess its just cause im watching my mate in a new relationship with my brother. She looks happy (yes the jealousy bug has kicked in), and my other mates have just renewed their vows and they are so happy with each other its unbelievable. you have to try and look on the positive side about being single.. best to be alone and have some fun then be with an ass Just feeling a bit down, but there's other personal stuff going on that i have to deal with this time every year. Brief run down. Had major operation when i was 13, (two weeks before my birthday) told could never have children. Told if i didnt have the operation i wouldn't get past my 30's. So i have this playing on my mind every year. (Im use to it but will never get over it)....
iwanttolive Posted July 29, 2008 Posted July 29, 2008 I got dumped last Monday. Last Friday was my bday. And I got stomach ulcer, my friend had to send me to hospital right after dinner Lol..
sultry33 Posted July 29, 2008 Posted July 29, 2008 I got dumped last Monday. Last Friday was my bday. And I got stomach ulcer, my friend had to send me to hospital right after dinner Lol.. if this is not a joke then man you got bad luck:confused: how you doing now?
sultry33 Posted July 29, 2008 Posted July 29, 2008 Cheers Sultry Glad to know someone else was in the same boat.... i went out to the club on my own on sat.. brave huh? i had loads of drinks bought for me and only spent £5 on drinks.. had a great time .. did give the guy i like alot my num.. if i did it right:D Proud of you for doing this i would never do it..... on the being single side.. i actually like it.. strange but its true.. my friend is having all this drama and i think thank god im not having to deal with all that;) I guess its just cause im watching my mate in a new relationship with my brother. She looks happy (yes the jealousy bug has kicked in), and my other mates have just renewed their vows and they are so happy with each other its unbelievable. you have to try and look on the positive side about being single.. best to be alone and have some fun then be with an ass Just feeling a bit down, but there's other personal stuff going on that i have to deal with this time every year. Brief run down. Had major operation when i was 13, (two weeks before my birthday) told could never have children. Told if i didnt have the operation i wouldn't get past my 30's. So i have this playing on my mind every year. (Im use to it but will never get over it).... thats really bad carrie, have you checked back with the doctors now? tecnology moves fast . i lost a baby on a certain date in oct.. every year it hurts. and my annervasary with my ex was the day before that date.. so for me october is a bad month.. i will get extra busy as i have to live my life. my mum pissed me off yesterday as she called and asked if im seeing anyone yet? i said nope .. no plans to either. she said well your nearly 40! you need to hurry up! made me feel great.. im 37 .. this is one of the many reasons i cannot stand my mum.. i will get great pleasure out of telling her that im seeing a guy of 24 lol not that im planning too but damn i wish she would butt out:o keep your chin up carrie.. if your not having fun with your mates get new ones.. new hobbies/job anything to help you. i hope you have a great day on your birthday
sultry33 Posted July 30, 2008 Posted July 30, 2008 HaPpY BiRtHdAy CaRrIe :bunny: hope you have a good day hugs to you xxx
borelandkaren Posted July 31, 2008 Posted July 31, 2008 Happy birthday, darlin'. I understand. My 40th and this year (42nd) were made a living hell by the ex. I've made a pact with myself to just get past it. My parents and son ALWAYS remember and celebrate it for me, so I don't have to. In this world, there is ALWAYS someone who loves us, whether we are monsters or not. Buy yourself something nice, have a drink or whatever and toast another year for yourself, by yourself. You don't need the ex to validate ANYTHING, ANYMORE. Find the value in yourself, darl. You're gorgeous, with or without the SO.
Author carrie3107 Posted August 1, 2008 Author Posted August 1, 2008 Had a really good birthday. Spent most of the time being drunk and letting my hair down. He didnt text but thats the best birthday pressie he could every have given me... Thanks sultry no theres nothing the docs or specialists can do. Had everything removed!!!! Just hurts this time of year.
Author carrie3107 Posted August 4, 2008 Author Posted August 4, 2008 Bit of a bad weekend... My best friend and brother have been seeing each other. (She was with her ex on and off for 22 years and broke up the same time as i did) So i get a text message Sunday morning when she was drunk saying that shed done something bad and needed to talk i responded saying what you done and she phoned me saying she was getting back with the ex and she was heartbroken.... Didnt speak to her until i saw her in the pub... I pulled her aside and have been very frank conversation with her saying i'll be your friend but i dont want to know anything about her ex, no crying or slagging him off when hes done the dirty on her. Basically she has done the i'll get with someone else to make her ex jealous.... We ended up having to do the bodyguard thing or he would have ended up fighting... My bro is a bit pissed off at the mo and wants to do the smear campaign.
iwanttolive Posted August 4, 2008 Posted August 4, 2008 if this is not a joke then man you got bad luck:confused: how you doing now? No, it's not a joke in fact i had to go back to hospital on monday because they misdiagnosed me on friday.. Turned out it was food poisoning. But they gave me medicine to stop the diarrhoea and contractions while the poison was still inside. So my stomach got worse on saturday and sunday as I was not able to go to the toilet to purge the poison out. I thought i had stomach cancer. Because I told God "I'm too afraid to commit suicide so pls just take my life in whatever way." Surprisingly I managed to move on after a series of bad luck. You know, what happened to me really seemed like a joke that i could do nothing but to laugh it off. What really helped me was putting myself on a programmed auto-pilot. Basically I told myself to eat well, dress well, groom my body, albeit MECHANICALLY. It was really mechanical because I felt like such a failure and sooo ugly after getting dumped. What started as mechanical became slightly enjoyable as time passed. Anyway, since I couldn't die, then i'll just drift along with the world.. Not sure if anyone else ever experienced this.
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