kyta Posted July 25, 2008 Posted July 25, 2008 Well i was in town today and walking around the shop when who should walk round the corner and bang me with her trolly, yep the x, and she was on her own for once, yes i started to talk to her even though i knew i shouldnt (court order) well we spoke about the kids, the cat, spoke abit about the past whys and all the crap, told her i wasnt angry with her, said glad shes happy, she said she wasnt, (tough) said im glad we had this talk she said the same, then i said the wrong thing, told her i still loved her, F*ck dam me to hell, why did i open my mouth and say that, she said dont she doesnt want to hear it, i said well u have heard it and this convo is over, i then said take care and walked away. I felt like crap for the nxt 3 hours felt like crying but didnt, i held it back, im ok again now well sort of, i dont fel like at square 1 or put myself back again, i feel better for the talk, just wish i hadnt told her i loved her, but we keep bumping in to each other, and i keep asking myself why, i dont want to see her, yet everywhere i go shes there, and im not looking at it as fate, but i do ask why we see each other all the time, i wont be talking to her again when i see her, i have nothing to say now, mind u i had nothing to say to her till i bumped in to her today. O well life goes on and everything for a reason, dont know why today was for but time will tell me, at least shes not as happy as i thought she was, couldnt belive it when she actully admitted it to me, i told her i was good and looking forward to my holiday, and was enjoying reconecting with my old friends, i woke up this morning and dint think of her for a cpl hours, funny how thing end up, u never know what round the corner.
nopainnogain Posted July 25, 2008 Posted July 25, 2008 Thats alright about the love you part. Dont beat yourself up about it. You did screw up saying that but whats done is done. At least you got it off your chest
foxh1234 Posted July 25, 2008 Posted July 25, 2008 Running into them is tough, I just did it as well. She now knows you are happy and it sounds like she isn't, good for her. It's OK to still love someone and tell them, even though you wish you hadn't. Forget it and enjoy your holiday. I think you handled yourself very well.
Author kyta Posted July 25, 2008 Author Posted July 25, 2008 Im good again now, have been thinking of her since i spoke to her, but still dont want to be with her, actuly feel better for the talk feels like cleared some air, i dont regret telling her i love her, it doesnt matter any way im just me and she knows me, so i have emotions big deal im proud of my emotions, at least i didnt ask her back now that would of been a mistake, so all in all i think it was a good day and not as bad i thought, everything for a reason, so now i feel better, then thats why it happened.
JustinWolf Posted July 25, 2008 Posted July 25, 2008 It's good to see you are doing better, just keep up with the happy spirit.
sultry33 Posted July 26, 2008 Posted July 26, 2008 Im good again now, have been thinking of her since i spoke to her, but still dont want to be with her, actuly feel better for the talk feels like cleared some air, i dont regret telling her i love her, it doesnt matter any way im just me and she knows me, so i have emotions big deal im proud of my emotions, at least i didnt ask her back now that would of been a mistake, so all in all i think it was a good day and not as bad i thought, everything for a reason, so now i feel better, then thats why it happened. you cannot help loving someone .. you did good.. you deserve better rich you are a great guy and she has lost that.. its tough seeing them but you are doing so well.. i respect you so much:) i told my ex i loved him.. he said i love you too but when its done its done.. fate or no fate id hate to bump into my ex.. anytime:cool:
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