Lonelystar Posted July 21, 2008 Posted July 21, 2008 I know I should of expected it to happen, but it was confirmed today. He e-mailed me saying he loves me, but no longer can deal with our emotional pain of the relationship. We never had huge problems, but conflicts like any other realtionship. My heart is crushed, because I guess there was a part of me that hoped he would come back. I will never see him again, and memories of us keep playing in my head over and over again. He didn't even call me, but sent me an e-mail breaking up with me. I just want to go away, and it is late. There is nobody to call, and I feel so weak. I cannot sleep nor do anything productive. I wish I never fell in love. I can't stop crying, and i feel like my insides are being ripped apart.
iwanttolive Posted July 21, 2008 Posted July 21, 2008 Lonely star, I can so understand your feeling.. I was writing a new thread, but I took too long to write and I got logged out and lost my entry. It's really so painful to end our r/s when we are still so deeply in love with each other. But he texted me. He hope to still be friends with me. And I know he's in pain too.. He told me yesterday it felt so painful if we were to end things. But things have gotten so ugly, I think he's tired and gave up. I wish to have advice for you. -Hugs-
Katherineos123 Posted July 21, 2008 Posted July 21, 2008 Oh Lonely Star. I feel for you. I have totally been in your shoes before, there is no pain like it in the world. But just know that eventually, you WILL BE OKAY. Im in the process of mourning over a lost love myself, and the only thing that keeps me going is that I know that one day, I will meet someone who I will never have to feel this way over again, and so will you. To be completely honest, this guy, although I dont know him, sounds like a chump to me. Any man who breaks up with someone over an email is less than worthy, and you sound like an intelligent wonderful woman who deserves a real man. The pain of heartbreak is awful. You cant eat, you cant sleep, and you find yourself asking how its all worth it in the first place. You will feel this way for a while, but you have to pick yourself up again and start over, you have no choice. Go out with your girlfriends, go grab a drink, or go to a movie (the Dark Knight is awesome! or maybe Sex and the City) Be with people who make you happy. Cry on their shoulders when you need to, but remember to stay strong, and appreciate what you do have, your health, your youth, your family and friends. Eventually, you will feel better, and you will meet someone who is gonna make you forget how terrible you feel right now... After all, falling in love is one of the best and most magical highs in this world, you cant give up on it from one blunder!!! Hopefully, you will start to feel better and take my advice. Good luck to you!
Author Lonelystar Posted July 21, 2008 Author Posted July 21, 2008 Thank you so much for your kind words. I can't stop crying, and I don't know when the pain will go away. I really thought this man was my soul-mate, but i was wrong. I spent 5 whole years trying to keep him happy. I was there for him when his dad was sick, and when his sister went crazy. I flew all the way to see him when he moved, even though I had very little money. I know realistically things can only go up from here, but I can't shake away this pain. I am trying to surround myself with people who love me, but they are all married and I feel so left out. He was my first love, and I guess that is why it is so painful. I have never loved anyone like him. I loved him more than myself, and would of given up everything to be with him. But i guess he didn't feel the same, and ended the relationship over an e-mail. He says we can talk, but I don't know what else to say to him. The big fight the lead to all of this, was me asking if he would be more affectionate. I didn't yell or scream, but he just flipped out. I don't know. I wish I was mad at him, but I am not. I have had to endure so much in these 23 years, and I finally thought I found happiness but it ended too. Thank you guys so much for replying. It really means a lot to me that strangers would care so much. I hope you guys feel a lot better too.
CailinPig Posted July 21, 2008 Posted July 21, 2008 lonelystar, if you need to rant or anyting, please feel free to email me: [email protected] we've all been through this
Author Lonelystar Posted July 22, 2008 Author Posted July 22, 2008 thank you so much for support. i feel like i have died inside. i just don't understand how he could leave everything we built together. I guess i will never understand. I am scared i won't be able to trust or love anyone else. i may take you up on your offer and e-mail you. thank you again for the support. I feel so lonely here, and I wish I was strong enough to handle it, but i feel so weak.
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