Hard times still

[Lonelystar]

So it has been awhile since my ex "needed space" due to aniexty and family issues. It has been a roller coaster. I have tried to maintain minmal contact, and only reply to his e-mails. He called me on my birthday at midnight and even sent a package, but still refuses to talk to me properly. He said he so sorry for doing this, but there is no other way. I am trying to let go and live my life, but it is so hard. All my life I have seen long lasting relationships, my parents have been married forever, my sisters both are married, my best is married, and now my cousin is getting married to her highschool sweetheart. I don't want to get married right now, but I always thought you find the "one", get married and stay together no matter how diffcult things got. It is probably a bad view to have, but it is what I grew up in. I've been working in a lab, and doing things to keep myself busy, but at night I still think about him. How I will never get to see him, or kiss him, or even hear his voice. I know it takes time to heal, but we have been together so long, and I don't know if I will fully recover. I know I have to pick up the pieces, but after 5 and 1/2 years it is so hard.

[indohouze]

I feel for you after going for that long for the relationship to go in this direction, im going through a bad time myself but it must be no where near the extent your going through.

[Lonelystar]

I am sorry for your hard times as well. I guess breaking up sucks no matter what. I hope one day we can all pick up the pieces, and find something even more spectacular. I just don't know how logical it is of me to have a "fairy tale ending" view on relationships..bleh

[indohouze]

trust me your 1 would be way harder than mine, you don't have reason to wanna break up with your man, mines driving me insane and i can't control why she acts the way she acts