willyB Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 Me and my ex broke up, after 2 years, a month ago. I broke up with her out of the fear of hurting her either phsically, because we had a terrible fight, or emotionally. I, however, still very much loved her. I kept making contact with her over the next few weeks. It was at this point that i realised that i no longer loved her the way I once did. Upon realising I no longer loved her as much as I once did I started trying NC. The first time we started NC she threatened suicide and started acting extremely crazy. So I started talking to her again. Then as soon as we started talking she wanted to become friends with benefits. I, however, couldn't do it because i think it is unhealthy. That brings me to 2 weeks ago. After starting NC a second time everything went smooth. Then on the fourth I saw her while i was watching the fireworks. It was then that I began to miss her . . . a lot. So I broke no contact and talked to her. She then began telling me about how she wanted me back but couldn't do it. Then the night before I went on vacation, the sixth, she told me she had slept with a boy on their first date on the 4th. It didn't bother me at the time because I knew I wasn't there and we were not dating. I was shaken by how quickly she did it. She then said we would give it another shot after I got back from vacation. When I got back she and I went on a date at the local lake. Where we, I thought, were once again madly in love. We were kissing, hugging, holding hands, and talking about going to the beach together. Then as i took her home I found out that she was hanging out with the guy she slept with when I got her back home. I was crushed and had a panic attack. Then Saturday I learned through her text messages, we were hanging out, that she had been picking on me all night long and making me out to be a monster. Even joking to her friends that I had a panic attack. So once again I have started NC but I am still hurting. I need help
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