confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 I have blocked him from emailing me, and am on NC for over 3 weeks, but he's still on my messenger (which I never sign into) and I did for some reason tonight and he is online right now and my heart hurts soooooooooooooo much and I don't have the guts to delete and block him..... I am so hurt right now... Same old story... When I am working and/or busy (which is most if the time) I could care less... But on days when I am not busy... I want to talk to him I miss him that is when we used to hang out and now there is this VOID... What do I do? How do I destroy the VOID?.... COmpletely
tealeafbud Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 i understand where you are coming from. my only advice is that time will heal your situation. It's up to you whether or not you want to delete him from messenger. I haven't deleted her off of my YIM but she's never on it anyway. She's told me previously that I'm still on hers, so I don't really care. I'm still getting over her and it's been 6 months. 3 months of torture because she would intentionally hurt me by sharing info about her new relationship. Now she disgusts me. Next I hope to just feel indifferent towards her which I can begin feeling. slowly but surely.
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 i understand where you are coming from. my only advice is that time will heal your situation. It's up to you whether or not you want to delete him from messenger. I haven't deleted her off of my YIM but she's never on it anyway. She's told me previously that I'm still on hers, so I don't really care. I'm still getting over her and it's been 6 months. 3 months of torture because she would intentionally hurt me by sharing info about her new relationship. Now she disgusts me. Next I hope to just feel indifferent towards her which I can begin feeling. slowly but surely. 3 months of torture... sounds like a long time How did you get to the point where she disgusts you???
Biker2007 Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 C&B, I think we have the same problems w/ downtime...that's when my mind wreaks havoc on me. Keep as busy as you can doing things for you! I'd delete the X from messenger...just too easy to have them comeback into our thoughts when you see them online. I cleaned house..deleted cell phone number, text messages,emails, pictures, told my friends no updates about her...she pretty much does not exist to me. Good luck,
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 C&B, I think we have the same problems w/ downtime...that's when my mind wreaks havoc on me. Keep as busy as you can doing things for you! I'd delete the X from messenger...just too easy to have them comeback into our thoughts when you see them online. I cleaned house..deleted cell phone number, text messages,emails, pictures, told my friends no updates about her...she pretty much does not exist to me. Good luck, I still haven't deleted the text messages either all of which I need to do... The only reason I don't want to delete his cell phone number is so that if he calls I will know it's him and not answer (caller id)... I actually did delete the emails which I think was the very hardest but I am still holding on to those few things...text and messenger I know keeping busy is essential, but sometimes it hard...
Biker2007 Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 I may over do the cleaning house sometimes... but I was re-reading all the little text messages. Funny, those were things I really missed...the little things get to me. I threw away a gift she had given me and a watch she had left at my house. I tried to get it back to her, but she started playing games w/me and I refused to let that crap drag out...such is life. Keep what you need, but try to make them hard to access.
Biker2007 Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 One other item I seem to hold onto...is the pain. For some odd reason,I just can't let that go. That is the last reminder I have of her, and I am struggling letting that go...
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 I may over do the cleaning house sometimes... but I was re-reading all the little text messages. Funny, those were things I really missed...the little things get to me. I threw away a gift she had given me and a watch she had left at my house. I tried to get it back to her, but she started playing games w/me and I refused to let that crap drag out...such is life. Keep what you need, but try to make them hard to access. I just deleted all the text messages... I don't need to keep anything the more I get rid of the less I have to distract me... I guess I just want to know how to get that piece of my heart back...
justaman99 Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 I still haven't deleted the text messages either all of which I need to do... The only reason I don't want to delete his cell phone number is so that if he calls I will know it's him and not answer (caller id)... I actually did delete the emails which I think was the very hardest but I am still holding on to those few things...text and messenger I know keeping busy is essential, but sometimes it hard... You haven't really accomplished a completness until you get rid of those last few links and memories. You can delete his number from your cell. Don't tell me you don't know what the number is or do you want to hear the name "Call from Jeff" when the phone rings? Everyone is different. I know my ex keeps everything, I think. I can't do that 'cause i'll just dig into those memories looking for the good stuff. That will just bring me back to remembering only the good which will then cause me to miss her more than I should. I have to remember the things that weren't so good between us as well to be better. -Just
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 You haven't really accomplished a completness until you get rid of those last few links and memories. You can delete his number from your cell. Don't tell me you don't know what the number is or do you want to hear the name "Call from Jeff" when the phone rings? Everyone is different. I know my ex keeps everything, I think. I can't do that 'cause i'll just dig into those memories looking for the good stuff. That will just bring me back to remembering only the good which will then cause me to miss her more than I should. I have to remember the things that weren't so good between us as well to be better. -Just I just erased his number and the texts from my phone and deleted him from messenger He is officially deleted from everything except my heart How do I delete him from my heart???
tealeafbud Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 3 months of torture... sounds like a long time How did you get to the point where she disgusts you??? well the 3 months included two 3-week periods of NC, having to deal with her talking to me about him, having to deal with her bullcrap drama with him, and just times of missing her and having mixed emotions with her. If that's not torture, I don't know what is. I guess disgust is too harsh a word. maybe irks is a more appropriate word. she irks me. She annoys me. She bugs me.
Biker2007 Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 How do I delete him/her from my heart??? Let me know when you figure out this one...I suppose we never really delete them, but put them in a far away place. Eventually.
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 well the 3 months included two 3-week periods of NC, having to deal with her talking to me about him, having to deal with her bullcrap drama with him, and just times of missing her and having mixed emotions with her. If that's not torture, I don't know what is. I guess disgust is too harsh a word. maybe irks is a more appropriate word. she irks me. She annoys me. She bugs me. Dude that is torture I have never had to listen to anything about other girls because he is always trying to get me back... If I did I think I would just drop dead... that is torture... Why did you put up with it?? Why did you stay in contact when she was messing with you so much???
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 How do I delete him/her from my heart??? Let me know when you figure out this one...I suppose we never really delete them, but put them in a far away place. Eventually. LOL I will trust me....
tealeafbud Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 Dude that is torture I have never had to listen to anything about other girls because he is always trying to get me back... If I did I think I would just drop dead... that is torture... Why did you put up with it?? Why did you stay in contact when she was messing with you so much??? maybe it was guilt, maybe I thought we could be friends, and stay cordial to each other. maybe i just wanted information. maybe it was all of these things. i really broke her heart into a million pieces and believe she's in a rebound relationship (not that I care), but when she started including me in her drama, it sort of ruined everything. two incidents of calling me in the middle of the night because "he" was missing or she couldn't get a hold of him had me pretty distraught for a while, but I'm over it. It gives me a little satisfaction that her new love interest is a total blockhead and KNOW they're not right for each other. She is HIS problem now. *grin
Peter_pan Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 i del her from my msn cause i didnt want to read her bs. you know where you can type stuff others can see. she always bigs up stuff that isnt that great
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 maybe it was guilt, maybe I thought we could be friends, and stay cordial to each other. maybe i just wanted information. maybe it was all of these things. i really broke her heart into a million pieces and believe she's in a rebound relationship (not that I care), but when she started including me in her drama, it sort of ruined everything. two incidents of calling me in the middle of the night because "he" was missing or she couldn't get a hold of him had me pretty distraught for a while, but I'm over it. It gives me a little satisfaction that her new love interest is a total blockhead and KNOW they're not right for each other. She is HIS problem now. *grin So have you cut her off yet... or do you still get to hear about their relationship and now you just find it annoying??? I love that "she is his problem now. *grin" I can't wait till I feel that way...if I ever feel that way?!
Author confused and broken Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 i del her from my msn cause i didnt want to read her bs. you know where you can type stuff others can see. she always bigs up stuff that isnt that great I hear ya.....I totally see how not great he is BUT for some idiotic reason it still hurts and when I get lonely I still miss him..
justaman99 Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 How do I delete him from my heart??? I don't think you can. My only love that I have experienced so far will always have a part of my heart no matter what I do.
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