Tabatha Posted July 15, 2008 Posted July 15, 2008 Today has been an awesome day so far. ....I feel in control ....I feel a sense a power ....I feel like I can accomplish anything My plans...... To act UnInterestedTo play hard to getAnd best of all....NO SEX until I am in a commited Relationship. I am no longer free booty. It's going to take a lot of love, commitment, loyalty, and respect plus...time before I give my self sexually to someone again.So my Ex, or Boyfriend, or Lover, or Friend.....is going to see what a strong woman I am. I'm going to PROVE to myself what a strong woman I can be. No longer is this girl weak. Today I have control over my wants and needs. Today I have control over my actions, feelings, and emotions. I leave you with words from Jessica Simpson I don't need somebody to complete me I complete myself Nobody's got to belong to somebody else I belong to me I don't belong to you My heart is my possession I'll be my own reflection I belong to me I'm one not half of two And if you're gonna love me You should know this baby I belong to me
kyta Posted July 15, 2008 Posted July 15, 2008 Today has been an awesome day so far. ....I feel in control ....I feel a sense a power ....I feel like I can accomplish anything My plans...... To act UnInterestedTo play hard to getAnd best of all....NO SEX until I am in a commited Relationship. I am no longer free booty. It's going to take a lot of love, commitment, loyalty, and respect plus...time before I give my self sexually to someone again. So my Ex, or Boyfriend, or Lover, or Friend.....is going to see what a strong woman I am. I'm going to PROVE to myself what a strong woman I can be. No longer is this girl weak. Today I have control over my wants and needs. Today I have control over my actions, feelings, and emotions. I leave you with words from Jessica Simpson I don't need somebody to complete me I complete myself Nobody's got to belong to somebody else I belong to me I don't belong to you My heart is my possession I'll be my own reflection I belong to me I'm one not half of two And if you're gonna love me You should know this baby I belong to me Ill commit to you
Crazy.S Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 I am glad you had an awesome day. I wish you a bunch more!
Author Tabatha Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 Thank You everyone! Well, I waited until 7pm and then he messaged me on myspace to tell me to call his house phone. He asked what's up, and said he went out to dinner with his mom and dad, and just got back. I told him my plans and he probably didn't know what to think. He was surprised I didn't call him at all. His phone rang at dinner, he expected it to be me, and it was his friend. He says I have a different attitude. I said I didn't care If I saw him tonight. We did go out, because he wanted to see me. He sat next to me with his arm across my shoulder. And when we got out of the car he gave me a big hug because I hadn't seen him in 4 days. Gave kisses on the cheek...and said good night. I'm hopefully going to talk to him more tonight because I want to know what he thinks about everything and how he feels.
Nemo Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 We did go out, because he wanted to see me. That girl power thing seems quite evanescent.
Author Tabatha Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 ^Well this is how the conversation went. He said he was going to Home Depot with his friend so he can install them in her house to keep out her crazy ex boyfriend. This is what I said. "Well, if you want you don't have to come and see me tonight if you don't want to." He replies with, "Really? You don't care?" "Nope, you can call me tomorrow, or something..." "You have a different attitude...was it because of last night?" he asks. "Kinda," i said. We got into a bit of an argument over me calling him over the weekend alot. He didn't have great reception in the mountains and it took me an hour to get connected with him to only talk for 3 minutes at a time. Then the call would get dropped. I got lucky if it went through 10 minutes after, so I can continue the conversation. He didn't like it. He says I smother him. "It has somewhat to do with it." "Oh," he says. Then I tell him about the "Plan". Doesn't say much. "Well, I'm going to call her and ask if she wants to swing by your house and pick you up...you can call me back in a little bit." "Okay..." So I called him back and she said they can swing by and pick me up. So I went. It's not like I gave up any power. I let him see a glimpse of change. I ALWAYS wanted to see him if he offered, even if he didn't, before today. I never said NO. I missed him anyway. I wanted to see him. It had been days since the last time. I still have control.
JustinWolf Posted July 16, 2008 Posted July 16, 2008 You go girl ... Oh god, I should go to sleep already. keep it up, you know what I told you, just remember indifference hurts more than hate and causes questions! You don't need him to be there for you. You need yourself and you need to be strong and you need to keep doing your "thang". ok, off, I go!
Author Tabatha Posted July 16, 2008 Author Posted July 16, 2008 You go girl ... Oh god, I should go to sleep already. keep it up, you know what I told you, just remember indifference hurts more than hate and causes questions! You don't need him to be there for you. You need yourself and you need to be strong and you need to keep doing your "thang". ok, off, I go! LOL! Get to bed! Believe me, I'm about to fall asleep myself just typing. I'm going to keep doing my thang and tomorrow ( i mean today, technically) is a brand new day and I'm so excited. Can't wait to get it started!! Thanks Cam for all your advice and help!!!
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