pickingupthepieces Posted July 12, 2008 Posted July 12, 2008 So I've had contact with the X for awhile now.. and at the beginning.. I liked it... now it is so STRESSFUL. For weeks now I have tried to just get "this" off of my chest. "This" being how I feel. So I am supposed to be seeing Monday, my first day that I actually have some time off. I have come to the conclusion that I should spill it all. I love him, but this is too much for me now. I WANT to be friends with him.. but I need to heal first, which I thought I had already done.. LOL boy did I fool myself! I simply can't be around him right now... it is to confusing with our mixed emotions.. there is no grey area.. there is together and NOT together... and when your NOT together.. you don't exchange I love yous, and ACT like you are together when you are physically together. It IS too hard for me.. HELL I am jealous.. I DON'T want to be jealous! I'm beginning to feel how I don't want to feel, I don't want disappointment all over again. I gave him my heart once.. all I have is pieces left. So I DO feel like it is best to come forward with all of this, since I do hope to remain friends... I don't mean to bombard him with my feelings.. I jsut want to be truthful, both to him and myself. Any opinions, suggestions on how to get through the next couple of days... and not feel so damn jealous? I work alone alot.. so it is HARD for me to keep "busy".
xjohnsgirlx Posted July 12, 2008 Posted July 12, 2008 suggestions to keep busy.... ummmmm go out n drink and see friends and go the movies and shopping and to a day spa .. spoil urself because you deserve it. =)
Recommended Posts