Nevermind Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 MH, lets see: the professed love of my life had an affair for nearly 4 months, starting on my birthday. When I found out and had the audacity to inform her of my existence (foolishly I thought she was being betrayed as well) he told me that he didn't care if I lived or died. Note, that was one day after I had cut myself and in full knowledge of the fact that I was really losing it. The drama continued from there, until I got an e-mail from his lovely girl who insulted me and used private information. I told him that I did not deserve that, to which he replied that I did. Yeah. Nutshell. I am coming to terms at how abusive the entire relationship was, so I begin to understand it was no loss at all. I was set free. Yet, the blow to the self-esteem is huge. Oh, and datewise "you look like a Russian prostitute for 20 bucks". Killer.
MaxManwell Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 You are a cack, Bean. I've never been outright rejected (yet), however at 22 I was madly in love with my boss who I also lost my virginity to, I pretty much thought he was God. Anyway, I was on his computer at work writing his master's thesis for him (yes, thats how low I had stooped) when an email popped up from a woman saying "babe can you remember to bring home milk tonight? xx". Turns out he was living with and engaged to someone else the entire time we were going out (18 months). When I would stay over at his place it was really just one of his properties... and the lies went on and on, nothing was as it had seemed. They are married with a baby now. The deception is still incomprehensible to me. I'll never get over it. Ever. Wow you are a shining example of a young lady aren't you ? No nice young boys your own age ? I'll give you some credit seems you are only 22 but jeezus, how could you be so short sighted ? Women are shocking keep sucking up to scumbags like that. 'One of his properties'. I hate the world.
MaxManwell Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 Thanks guys! Yeah, the experience fundamentally changed me for life. Ive never been rejected since, coz I just dont put myself out there anymore. I never told the wife. I suspect she deliberately turned a blind eye to his ways, anyway. Moreover, I dont think I could cope with the drama; I was traumatised enough. It took me a good 2 years to even fully comprehend what he did, I was in denial for ages. I didn't even have the "it's over" conversation with him, I just went silent and let him figure it out. We still have to work together and we still have not spoken about it since. I dont think I could ever articulate how I feel, so there is no point in speaking about it. I think he's grateful I didn't turn psycho on his arse. Having sex with one of your younger employees well, what a shining example of a man. Women really do have terrific judgment don't they ? I gotta get me some of that some day. Lots of silly young girls are around waiting to be taken advantage of. All you need to do is be their boss, and own several properties... oh wait... I'm a bum.. oh dear. I hate the world.
JP77 Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 Wow you are a shining example of a young lady aren't you ? No nice young boys your own age ? I'll give you some credit seems you are only 22 but jeezus, how could you be so short sighted ? Women are shocking keep sucking up to scumbags like that. 'One of his properties'. I hate the world. Bejesus lad, what are you, the dalai lama? He was her boss, an older man in a uit with a flash car and a nice house (I'm making assumptions here). If I was a woman and older man with power and authority chased after me, I'd given in. She got burnt and learnt her lesson. Now Max, how's your girlfriend?
JP77 Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 I hate the world. I do too, but you know when I'm feeling blue, I put on some country western and line dance in my lounge, before heading off to BINGO.
Myst Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 We still have to work together and we still have not spoken about it since. I dont think I could ever articulate how I feel, so there is no point in speaking about it. I think he's grateful I didn't turn psycho on his arse. That is horrible. Im sorry that happened to you *hugs*. When you stay still, you mean you're still working with this lying b@stard? I know that seems like a stupid question, but if the answer is yes, how do u deal seeing him everyday? Wouldnt you want to leave? Unless there are no other jobs in your area, then I can see why. Or if you have finance needs. I hope you get over it completely soon *hugs*
JP77 Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 Next time he is playing golf, hide in the bushes and keep shouting "FOUR", as he is about strike the ball, it always puts people off. Do that around the 18's holes and watch his anger levels go through the roof. I used to that as a youngun on a saturday afternoon. Good times.
MaxManwell Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 Rejections: too many to count. Worst Rejection : Those two or three times I was silly enough to actually become friends with a girl and have feelings for her. I got the typical ' I just don't feel anything for you' rubbish and once even got told off for asking her out, she was drunk and yelling at me about how guys are the same or some other rubbish, I was really heart broken. She just abused me and even if we were supposed to be friends you don't treat a friend like that anyway. Then she went and told all of our friends that I attacked her because she loves drama and sympathy. I told her if that is what has happened she should call the police because I am not safe to be out on the streets, as I am blacking out b.c I don't remember any of that happening. Some people believed it but most didn't and the ones that did believe it didn't for very long. She ended up socially alienating herself from our group of friends for about 2 years. It was a really terrible and caused me to become depressed. Shortly after that I suffered an illness and some family related problems occurred. I ended up failing 2 subjects in my final semester of college which basically closed the lid on me having an academic career. I was so depressed I couldn't study or hold in information. I couldn't sleep I was lying awake at night just thinking about her and about things. It was pathetic and terrible. I'd never felt that way about a girl before and she shattered me into a million pieces. I should not have been friends with her for so long but I was naive and didn't understand the way things work. What made it all worse was that I knew it was all my own fault and I had no one to blame but myself.
MaxManwell Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 Bejesus lad, what are you, the dalai lama? He was her boss, an older man in a uit with a flash car and a nice house (I'm making assumptions here). If I was a woman and older man with power and authority chased after me, I'd given in. She got burnt and learnt her lesson. Now Max, how's your girlfriend? HECK if an older man came up to me with all of that I'd probably still abide him and I am not even gay.... I think. That still wouldn't make me any less stupid !
JP77 Posted July 11, 2008 Posted July 11, 2008 HECK if an older man came up to me with all of that I'd probably still abide him and I am not even gay.... I think. That still wouldn't make me any less stupid ! Well, Maxwell, women mature later than men, that's a given. Women wish they were as well rounded us, which is why we are both single.
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