I'm scared... I need reassurance I'm doing the right thing...

[pickingupthepieces]

I have decided that I need to talk to my X.. who has never felt like an X to me! We have been talking prob every second day and see eachother once in a while. He came over the other night and I was hoping to talk to him.. in person but I worked late so he just hung put at my place until I got home and went to work in the am. As soon as he saw me he grabbed me and hugged me, it felt great.

 

I am trying to make plans with him for tomorrow... but haven't reached him yet. I am hoping I can see him asap.. just to get this out. I just don't know what to say.. I have so many feelings. I THINK I really want him back, but don't think its possible. I FEEL like he wants to be with me. More then anything I NEED to be honest and to stop walking on eggshells. I AM so scared though... I don't think its that I'm scared to be rejected/... I think its that I'm scared to admit to myself.. what I want. I'm scared that what ever I say is going to be too much for him to handle.. but I need to think about me right?... and let it out? I wish I could just give him my heart and tell him to listen, because no matter what I sat or how I say it... it will never come out right. Any suggestions??

[Fun2BMe]

It sounds like you have developed a good friendship with your ex, but expressing your desire to take it to the next level might ruin it. Why don't you be patient and see how things pan out instead of having an urgent need to lay out all your feelings on him. Let him express his feelings first. Maybe you can tell him you got asked out by a co-worker and see what his reaction will be like. He himself shouldn't be witholding his feelings, while you're in a spot to have to express yours. He can't have you to himself without making it official, otherwise you are fee to see other people.