Shygirl15 Posted July 9, 2008 Posted July 9, 2008 Hello, I'm just going downhill at this time. Anyway, Sunday was my son's 5th birthday, and I woke up feeling so emotional. I guess it's because that was the actual day I gave birth to him. So everything was coming back to me, just like that Sunday 5 years ago. Anyway, nobody in my family seemed to remember, not even his own dad. Keep in mind that I'm more than 10,000 miles from my family and his dad. So when I woke up I started sending out messages that it's ------- 5th birthday today. My family responded within few minutes of my message, sending apologies for forgetting, and wishing him well. My mom who's is 70yo and who has 8 grandkids even called just to wish him well. His dad, kept quiet. After like 5 hrs he sent me a message saying that he's watching 'The Cleaner" (whatever that is), and that he misses me lots. I asked him, did you see my message regarding ---- b-day? He said I haven't read my emails since Thursday! So I replied "but I sent a phone text to you, not email?" Quiet. Okay people, my biggest concern is that I feel so alone in this world with this child right now. You should see the way he holds on tight to my hand, like I'm the only person he trusts in this whole world! I feel so helpless; what if I die today?? I mean even his own dad seem to have lost interest or whatever. I'm his only hope. Like right now he's looking at me with such adorable eyes. But who knows what will happen tomorrow? I'm so helpeless. Sorry if this if not the right forum, but would really like to get ideas from some familiar names ofthis forum.
Orbit Posted July 9, 2008 Posted July 9, 2008 I think I can guess why he is your ex! You sholdn't worry about being your child's be-all-end-all, that is what a good parent is. You obviously love your child and he loves you, and that is all that matters. Just continue to love him and everything will be fine. Tell the little fella Happy Birthday!
trubella Posted July 9, 2008 Posted July 9, 2008 not sure what to say to you, i deal with something similar- except my sons 7th bday was last month and his father abandoned him many years ago, so your left to pick up the pieces becoming mom and dad. its tough, but what can you do?cant force them to be fathers. i just recently looked into a big brother program its good for them to have a male figure in their life, even though unfortunately their dads are too sorry to step into that role as a dad. feel bad for my son at times.
Author Shygirl15 Posted July 9, 2008 Author Posted July 9, 2008 Thanks Orbit and TruBella. I was just so depressed last night. TruBella how do I get information on that Big Brother program?
trubella Posted July 9, 2008 Posted July 9, 2008 Thanks Orbit and TruBella. I was just so depressed last night. TruBella how do I get information on that Big Brother program? you can go to bbbs.org type in zipcode for your local agency. gluck
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