taylor3205 Posted July 7, 2008 Posted July 7, 2008 I am totally worn out, drained, depressed and I am finding it really difficult to motivate myself to think of any kind of happy future without my ex. Ive got prospects, could have a great career, not bad looking, get plenty of attention, yet non of it means a damn thing without my ex. If I won the lottery 2moro, had people chucking themselves at me, got everything I ever wanted I would still not be happy because the one person on this planet that means everything to me doesent want to be with me anymore. Its been 8 months now and Im still such a mess. All I can think of is them, my whole world and thought process revolves around them. Every litttle piece of 'happiness' or 'laughter' I express is fake. I just feel so sad, lost and lonely. I have tried no contact but I always cave in, sometimes I have hope and then its just completely dashed again. We had a great conversation last week, was on the phone two hours, things were going well. Then I start getting all clingy and needy and text all the time and drive my ex away. He says he misses me and misses talking to me but just cant give me what I want at the moment, only thing he can offer is friendship. He says this then says well just for now can we not just be friends and see what happens. Id love to be friends but I love him and cant bear the thought of him with other people or anything. He gives me an inch and I try and take a mile. I hate feeling like this.
Author taylor3205 Posted July 7, 2008 Author Posted July 7, 2008 Oh and he always says he is putting a brave face on things and acting as though everything is ok but no one knows how he truly feels.
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