I gave it my best..shot?

[Myzterio]

I usually lurk around and read threads but now its my time to post one of my own. To keep it simple, I've dated -- for about two years. It was aswome, let me tell you that. We had our difference's and such, we made it the best it can be after coming out of two previous relationships were we both got cheated on. I thought it was true love until ... my emoticons rose.

 

I became an angry kid, when i mean angry, I mean ANGRY. I swear, she ended up breaking it off with me in march and ever since then, I was single. I had no motivation into talking to and trying too hook up, It wasn't over. Come May, I messaged her and even try ed to call(rejected).. wishing her a happy birthday and wanted to wish all happiness to her. At first, a week before her birthday, I was trying to get in touch with her and she turned me down like no other but that didn't stop me. So, finally.. she had some heart to let me see her and I gave her gift's and all, we talked and we ended up crying and stuff and she said we could be friends UNTIL....

 

Her party. I coudnt go to it. I'm sorry my parents wont let me stay out till 1 clock because of my behavior and EVERYTHING FLIPPED FLOP after. She became a girl I never expected to see. She turned me down when I would call, text or message. Cursing at me, and I would try to comfort her saying I'm sorry I coudnt make it, its my behavior and all and it didnt work. She ended up sending me one last message, "I REGRET YOU GET OUT OF MY LIFE".

 

And, thats where it hit me. She regretted me and everything fall apart for me that is. I would check her myspace every now and then and she looked absoulty stunning and gorgeous. I dont blame her one bit, I changed .. I wasnt the person who I was when we first started dating, things were going rough in my life and she put up with me for a while .. actually a WHOLE while until she got enough, but I changed for the best.

 

She says shes moved on, but I don't belive it one bit. She's hurt because I coudnt attend her party. She's those kind of girl's that end up taking back what they said after they realize what they done. It's been one month since I've talked to her, its kind of hard because we have the same friends, we grew up with each other basically for two straight years.

 

Iunno, maybe hope is still up there.. I love the girl to death, I went through so much for her and all i get is "I REGRET" you. She wanted me to change and I swear, I've changed. It's unbelivable, from physical apperance to attidude to thinking. I wanted this to be the perfect summer for us, but It backfired. I broke my leg aswell and she didnt even bother telling me I hope you feel better. During our relationship, we would have those one week not talking but it would end up breaking contact(NOT ALL THE TIME).

 

I only have one option, is to wait and see what happens.

Oh, I also become a senior(highschool) :-D.

[sultry33]

hi op.. its great that you changed yourself..

i hope you did it for you too.

if you have the same friends maybe someone knows how she really feels?

 

if she wants you she would i believe come to you.. so maybe you have to accept that it is now over.

 

i hope things continue well for you

[justaman99]

I'm a little more skeptical on this "CHANGE" thing. you may think you have changed but maybe the realization that you lost a great thing due to your attitude and behavior makes you wish you were different. The only recourse you have right now is to try and convince her you are different to get that second chance. I'm not trying to be mean but people say they changed when they lose a great thing when if fact they haven't really changed at all. Change takes time, is a learning process, a redirecting of activity, emotion and things innate in the brain. It doesn't happen over night. i just think it's more likely you're just saying you have because you realize how good she was for you. It's a start that you admit you were very ANGRY. That is a good thing. Keep working on it.

 

-Just