yellowroses Posted July 2, 2008 Posted July 2, 2008 Hi everyone, This is my first post, I have been reading over this site for a few weeks and decided it was time for me to post my own question because im seriously getting out of control. My boyfriend and I have been together 6 months. Things are going great, well great except that the paranoia in me. In every relationship I have been in I am scared I am going to get cheated on or lied too. It has happened once as far as i know so perhaps that made it worse. I am not young either well i am old enough that i should not act as i do. Iwill be 30 this year. my boyfriend is 37. Lately i am checking up on him ALOT and he does not know. By checking up i mean to see if he is online, etc, i dont know basically jsut trying to see if any changes in habits, phone calls, etc are occuring. If i dont hear from him all day i assume he is cheating. i dont know im just driving myself insane. I met him online and now im scared he will meet others online because i read all about it happening in these posts. He is online all the time at work he works 12 hour days, 4 on 4 off and they are allowed online to pass time so he is. So i always wonder who he is talking to. He knows about all my insecurities. I am just scared i will push him away and I dont know what to do. Plus i need my sanity. I know i have self-esteem anxiety issues its just that i need to figure out how to stop, aside from seeing someone because my health insurance is not helping me out there. thank you!
CarrieT Posted July 2, 2008 Posted July 2, 2008 Therapy. Seriously. You have the classic, "I know what I'm doing is wrong but I can't stop myself" syndrome. And it will be devastating to your relationship when it backfires, which it will eventually.
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