TalkLikeLion Posted June 28, 2008 Posted June 28, 2008 I wrote out my entire story and posted it, and somehow, while writing it out, I came to a realization. Since deleting posts isn't recommended, I'm not going to ask to delete it. But I realized that telling anyone on the internet who will listen what happened is not what is needed right now, and that saying this is going to help me more than anything: We fell in love with each other. Not with our mistakes or our pasts. I acted immaturely and horrid, and I made him think I doubted our relationship and his love for me. I made a mistake, point blank. A huge one. No one on here can help me predict whether he will give me another shot. But life goes on, and he is worth trying to get him back. The only thing I am guilty of in our break up is acting young and inexperienced. Never having had a serious relationship before, I didn't know what to expect. But I AM young, and now I HAVE had experience. Love is about forgiveness, and if the person you love is truly worth everything you feel for them, they will forgive you if you really are sorry. If they don't, then you need someone who will. If he doesn't forgive me, I couldn't have meant nearly as much to him as I should have. I'm sticking to that one. It's a delicate realization and any moment I may break down again and feel horrid, but let's hope for the best. Good luck guys =)
sid3 Posted June 28, 2008 Posted June 28, 2008 Oh if only luck had anything to do with it. Same thing about Karma. being young and inexperienced is not a horrible sin in any R. The problem is: it is often seen as flakiness. Who knows if you'll be forgiven. Maybe if/once you are you won't care as much. Hopefully you won't break down and feel horrid. But more than likely you will at some point, just remember, it's temporary. There couldn't be ups if it weren't for the downs. Good luck!
Ronni_W Posted June 28, 2008 Posted June 28, 2008 The self-realization that you came to is *perfect*! And it speaks to the fact that you are, indeed, moving in the right direction. Congratulations . You're right that sometimes all we can do is learn the lessons of our experiences, and take the positive stuff that we learn forward with us. Good luck to you, too. As you realize, your feelings about it will fluctuate...sometimes wildly and randomly. But as the previous poster said, feelings are just temporary. But life lessons...those we carry forever, so I'm happy for you that you are so clearly gaining those. Wishing you continued success.
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