ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 Just feeling lonely... Don't miss her as much as I miss her company. Just want to be held and kissed on the cheek and told that I'm loved... *sigh*
ate_the_paint Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 There's a lot of people feeling lonely tonight...just look forward to that day when someone is kissing you on the cheek...
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 Yeah... just one of those nights, I guess. I do look forward to that day, but it's hard to envision, you know? I mean, this last girl was the first girlfriend I had that lived within driving distance. And I'm 25. Took me ages to find her, and the whole thing only lasted 2 months... It's discouraging to say the least. *sigh*
ate_the_paint Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 I know how you feel...hence I'm up in the middle of the night hanging around LS! Don't sweat it too bad. Actually when I was 25 my ex and I broke up and six months later I met my (future) fiance...who ended up breaking my heart six years later...now I'm up at night posting here...oh well...like you said, just one of those nights.
carhill Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 No worries. You just don't need as much sleep when you get older Oh, and the feeling can be the same even if you're a generation older and married. Trust me.... One thing I have learned. The cat makes for pretty good early morning company, especially when she starts snoring
carhill Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 At my elbow as I type this. She sighs a lot when she sleeps. She snores when she sleeps on her back with her legs up in the air. My wife says that Siamese cats like men better. No clue, but this one always sleeps with me. Only problem, in summer, she's d@mn hot (as in temperature).... I didn't have animals when I was single, save for a snake and some iguanas. I've come to like cats. I think, if I become single again, I will become one of those eccentric cat people
northstar1 Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 I know how you feel...hence I'm up in the middle of the night hanging around LS! Don't sweat it too bad. Actually when I was 25 my ex and I broke up and six months later I met my (future) fiance...who ended up breaking my heart six years later...now I'm up at night posting here...oh well...like you said, just one of those nights. I'm not sure what is worse, not being able to sleep and thinking of the ex, or sleeping but constantly having dreams about them.
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 Oh, and the feeling can be the same even if you're a generation older and married. Trust me.... My ex and I had this little game we'd play, (hit on it being silly in a restaurant and it stuck) where we'd gently elbow the other person in the ribs (sometimes not so gently) and the elbowee would be under obligation to tell the elbower that he/she loved him. While there's a time and place, of course, it certainly helped fill that need in a way. Sort of a subtle, playful way of getting affection from the other person without coming across as needy.
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 I'm not sure what is worse, not being able to sleep and thinking of the ex, or sleeping but constantly having dreams about them. Geez, tell me about it. Nothing kicks your morning's ass like having dreams about your ex. Had that problem the other nights. Woke up all pissed off because she was sleeping with someone else in my dream. Bleck.
northstar1 Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 Geez, tell me about it. Nothing kicks your morning's ass like having dreams about your ex. Had that problem the other nights. Woke up all pissed off because she was sleeping with someone else in my dream. Bleck. Yeah, I know. The past few nights, woken up in the morning with some vivid dreams - just ruins my mornings. Gotta be the brain trying to tell us something.
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 I think it's just the brain being an a*shole, to be honest. It figures, "Hey, I've seen this face around here quite a bit. I'll bet that means I should be thinking about it even more!" Insufferable creature.
stlnsmile Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 Just lonely, not for the ex, just for a hug, a smile, an ice cream and a laugh....ugghhhhg! Well off to do a bunch of cr** for the day, all by myself!!!!!!!
northstar1 Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 I think it's just the brain being an a*shole, to be honest. It figures, "Hey, I've seen this face around here quite a bit. I'll bet that means I should be thinking about it even more!" Insufferable creature. True! What makes is worse is I bet my ex isn't having these dreams.
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 Yeah, that sounds about right. Consequence of being dumped, huh? If I'd chosen to end it on my terms, I wouldn't be thinking about her much either. C'est la vie...
kizik Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 True! What makes is worse is I bet my ex isn't having these dreams. I would venture that she IS. Doesn't matter, anyway, but the human subconscious is a powerful thing and it doesn't *just* affect the Dumped.
northstar1 Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 I would venture that she IS. Doesn't matter, anyway, but the human subconscious is a powerful thing and it doesn't *just* affect the Dumped. Very true, at this point, it doesn't really matter if she is.
BillClam Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 I miss sleeping with her! Dangit, now I hate this post
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 I miss that, too, bro. I fecking loved waking up next to her. All together now, *sigh*.
northstar1 Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 I miss that, too, bro. I fecking loved waking up next to her. All together now, *sigh*. yep. have you had any contact with her since things ended?
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 It's been 2.5 weeks since the break up, now that I look at the calendar. For the first few days we tried calling each night, but that ended pretty quick. Haven't seen her, talked to her in 2 weeks now, last time she we spoke she called me for a ride to and from work (****ty on her part). Dodged a bullet last Sunday, actually. I'm really not interested in seeing her in a social situation until I see her face to face first. Can't really decide why that is. Maybe to guage our dynamic before being stuck in a situation where I have to rub shoulders with her... ? Don't know... I was planning on breaking NC tomorrow to get my movies back, though. Don't particularly want to spend any time with her. I just want what's mine, and to let things rest where they lie.
kizik Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 Makes sense. I told you before you were prob. not ready to see her and get those flicks, but once you are / do, all ties can be cut and you won't have excuses to see her anymore. I just sent my ex some books she lent me. Left a short, blunt note in the package. "Here are your books." Anyway, no reason for either of us to contact the other, ever again! Great! Get it over with. Best to have her send the movies to you, but if you can't, keep the meeting short and NOT sweet.
Author ianandris Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 Agreed, bro. The idea of cutting ties completely is sounding more and more enticing to me. Couple complications to that idea, though, namely, given the brevity of our relationship, the fact that she lives practically next door, and the fact that we run in some of the same social circles makes it prudent to leave things with as much a sense of goodwill and cordiality as possible. Plus, I honestly don't hold anything against her. Ultimately, she filled a need I had and I filled one she had. She just ended it sooner than I would have chosen to. I jumped in as wholeheartedly as she did, so I'm just as much to blame for getting my feelings hurt as she is. But you were right about not being ready to get them earlier. I ended up just ditching the idea. I may ditch it again this Saturday, who knows? Depends on how I feel tomorrow. I'll cross that bridge when I'm ready to cross that bridge.
northstar1 Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 Agreed, bro. The idea of cutting ties completely is sounding more and more enticing to me. Couple complications to that idea, though, namely, given the brevity of our relationship, the fact that she lives practically next door, and the fact that we run in some of the same social circles makes it prudent to leave things with as much a sense of goodwill and cordiality as possible. Plus, I honestly don't hold anything against her. Ultimately, she filled a need I had and I filled one she had. She just ended it sooner than I would have chosen to. I jumped in as wholeheartedly as she did, so I'm just as much to blame for getting my feelings hurt as she is. But you were right about not being ready to get them earlier. I ended up just ditching the idea. I may ditch it again this Saturday, who knows? Depends on how I feel tomorrow. I'll cross that bridge when I'm ready to cross that bridge. For sure, don't do it until you feel completely ready - no need for any painful setbacks.
tealeafbud Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 Just lonely, not for the ex, just for a hug, a smile, an ice cream and a laugh....ugghhhhg! Well off to do a bunch of cr** for the day, all by myself!!!!!!! Stln, you and me both! I'm not sure if I'm lonely, but I sure could use a hug and smile, and definitely some good ice cream. None of that generic stuff either! I did a lot of stuff by myself too. I hope all is going well with you.
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