serratededges Posted June 26, 2008 Posted June 26, 2008 Well, Its been seven days since I even spoke to my ex-boyfriend. This is the first time I have ever been broken up with and I hate it. I wake up and then think of him. The crying is down to a minimum, which is good since I have never been someone who crys alot. I have cleaned out my house, and I am going to the gyme every day. Since i am unemployed due to waiting for a medical insurance company to approve a shot they keep denying, every day is like a weekend (not in the fun i don't have to work way, but in the if I have to think about him for one more second I am going to snap). I am going out this weekend to get my usual fix of flirting and hopefully it will at least enhance my self-esteem. I am also cutting my hair into a fun but medium length (between chin and shoulders) swing bob and I am dying it black. Don't worry I wanted to do it before he dumped me, though then I'll probably be back to strawberry blonde next summer, I am looking forward to some of the stupidest things, since we broke up. He was my friend, confidante, and my lover. I hate not having him, I hate missing him, I hate that he doesn't miss me, and i will really hate it when I hear he is with someone else. I don't even get jealous, but I can't imagine him holding another girl and being sweet to her. I guess I am just ranting but any support is so appreciated at this time.
kizik Posted June 26, 2008 Posted June 26, 2008 Well, it sounds like you are going to have fun flirting this weekend. I really wish I was chick, b/c chicks always have guys paying attention to them and like you said, it's a real self-esteem booster... guys, not so much. If a woman is being friendly with us, chances are they're taken... cute, single women are about as easy to find as the Holy Grail. Sounds like cutting/dyeing your hair will be fun and will make you feel independent from him. As far as him with another woman... well, don't hear about it! We can avoid info if we want to.
sultry33 Posted June 26, 2008 Posted June 26, 2008 hi op.. im on day 6 nc as in texts.. calls.. emails last saw him 9 days ago.. yeah it still hurts me too, and like yourself i work online an business is slow atm.. so most days im bored stiff.. done my garden.. cleaned the house, dyed my hair .. dyed it back lol i party every weekend which i think my ex hates.. but weekends are the worse for me as thats when we would be together.. ie no work. now im a brave face.. yeah flirting is good. still miss him though.. but i think i always will. i told him its going hurt us both when we meet someone he said he doesnt want to and is keeping busy.. made me feel worse for going out. he even said id move on before him.. winds me the f**k up as he left me! anyway.. day 6... keep strong and hugs to you:)
Author serratededges Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 Ok so he called fifteen minutes ago, and said hi ********* this is *********** I am just calling to see how you are doing, give me a call when you get this. WTF I was doing better and now i am completely frazzled. I mean I told him that I couldn't be friends with him until time has gone by. I have his battery charger and he has my jacket but I told him last week it would be a few weeks and for him not to call unless something changed. Either way now I am just all wierd and depressed again.
Author serratededges Posted June 27, 2008 Author Posted June 27, 2008 I don't know if I should call him back at all or tommorrow or Saturday. What do you guys think?
df273 Posted June 27, 2008 Posted June 27, 2008 he got your message... let him return the call at his convenience.
Author serratededges Posted June 28, 2008 Author Posted June 28, 2008 I didn't leave him a message, he left me one.
Vyliss Posted June 28, 2008 Posted June 28, 2008 Hmm, I would try not to call him. Since you told him not to contact you and he's doing it anyway. See if he tries to contact you again.
sultry33 Posted June 28, 2008 Posted June 28, 2008 hi op. let us know how it goes.. do what is right for you.. im on day 7 nc.. he hasnt called.. texted.. he is alive though.. not sure if he is really living.. but he has a pulse im out again tonight, and there is someone i like there.. so who knows? im tired of being upset.. i need a distraction.. trouble is i tend to run fast when someone is interested.. maybe it be different with him as i like him.. but honestly i have not really spoken to him.. so .. well i dont know.. not sure not sure if i want anyone else.. im just trying to move on like my ex told me to do.. hugs to u x
Author serratededges Posted June 28, 2008 Author Posted June 28, 2008 Well, he called again and I have agreed to play pool with him and we will talk. From what I know this will be like a first date only worse situation, especially since flirting is my favorite thing to do (well not my favorite but its fun). However, right now I feel like I am actually nervous. Oh well, I will see. Good luck sultry33, either way the distraction will help. I too tend to run the other way if in any way cornered, but you never know.
Author serratededges Posted June 28, 2008 Author Posted June 28, 2008 Well, I called him since we only tentatively agreed on going out tonight or sunday night. Either way I called and I have yet to get a response. Maybe he is such an ass that he assumed since I had plans yesterday, I was out with someone though thats not likely, so I guess time will tell. I hate this.
sultry33 Posted June 29, 2008 Posted June 29, 2008 Well, I called him since we only tentatively agreed on going out tonight or sunday night. Either way I called and I have yet to get a response. Maybe he is such an ass that he assumed since I had plans yesterday, I was out with someone though thats not likely, so I guess time will tell. I hate this. hi.. just be careful.. i too played the "busy" card, as yeah you are supposed to be a little less avaliable, but yep he turned that rd on me.. said mates.. he said u mean guys! as i said was in pub with my mates.. i said i didnt have kids 4 the week but was busy.. then he said he didnt call/text as i said i was busy:eek: then we arranged dates.. but he pulled out way too many times. if its done walk away.. for your own sanity .. i should have listened. i dont really regret anything i just wish i was further down the healing path. think of yourself 1st..
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