What to make out of it?

[broncos23]

So, my X and I broke up around 2 months ago from a yr. and a half relationship. I first went wrong by going around begging, basically pouring my heart out for her. It was not till then that I found this site and found the "no contact" approach. I initiated this no contact for like the last 2 weeks or so. Problem is that we have mutual friends so we always end up running into each other.

 

Just a couple of days ago was graduation for my school. I went and she was also there. I said two words to her at most and didn't look at her. Now to last night. I get a text from her asking if I was up. Then she texts me saying that shes so so so so sorry for everything and that she hopes I can understand her.

 

I didn't see the messages till the morning and I replied. I said that she shouldn't be sorry. Things happen. I told her that I would take my experiences and my mistakes from this relationship and just apply it to the next. She asked if I could come over and talk. I agreed, since I was in the area.

 

We talked and she basically wanted to know why I was "ignoring' her and I told her flat. I told her I am a human. I have feelings. You can't just expect me to be the same friend as before we started going out. She told me she understood that but we always said we would be close. She goes around doing her own thing with guys, not having sex or anything, but just going out and hanging out. I told her that was fine, I do that too, but that she can't expect me to be as I was before. Blah..blah, the conversation went on, and we decided to give being friends a try. We both, said whatever happens from there happens.

 

I don't know if I am wrong for doing it. I just feel like going around the next two years of high school hating her is not "right". I'm not saying I am going to be her new best guy friend but I don't think a simple hello in the halls would hurt either.

 

I know I'm going to see her a lot in the summer. She told me she still loves me and I still do care about her. I told my friend and he said it was a bad idea considering that I am trying to get over her. I don't know if the whole guys thing, which she claims she likes no one and doesn't want a relationship from anyone, is going to make it any easier. Basically, what I am trying to ask is, what should I make out of it? I told my friend I was going to be up her ass or get my hopes up or anything similar to that.

 

How should I approach the situation? Should I almost start over with her? I really don't know what to make out of the situation it since she was the one who contacted me. Any insight or help would truly. Thanks.