nc day 1.. hurts alot

[kyta]

I wish i could, havnt felt like it for a while now, went to see some friends, enjoyed that better, feeling a lot better now and have no reason why, but im not complaining to much.

What aprt of the uk you from?

[sultry33]

I wish i could, havnt felt like it for a while now, went to see some friends, enjoyed that better, feeling a lot better now and have no reason why, but im not complaining to much.

What aprt of the uk you from?

 

yeah just push yourself to get out.. always makes me feel better.. even if i cant afford food for myself for rest of the week lol

 

im from kent.. nr gillingham u?

[Corinne]

yea i agree, atm though i just feel sad.. sad that he didnt love me enough to

ride the ride of life..

i really want to get angry with him but its hard for me as generally im not an angry girl.

was talking to a "friend" last night you know a guy i talk to but thats all! lol

he said how come you dont ever get with anyone? how come a girl like you is single?

i just said im taking time out.. just ended a relationship been out of for 3 months an you know i need me time to heal..

was 1st time i could speak about it an not get sad.. for me thats a big step.

he said you know he has lost so much.. i said yep he sure has.. an you know he has.

 

i loved him , respected him, basically idololised him.. we fitted, had mostly same interests.. i never critised him, never really argued, if we did it was short lived.

i looked after him.. was the best sex he had.. was kinky.. norty, loving, happy, safe, spontaneous.. exciting..

did all the car shows.. listened to all the hyped up police stories.. held his hand when he was nervous.. kissed away his tears.. bigged him up when he was feeling down about life.. supported him finacially.. helped him get out of debt.. was his best friend.. was his soul mate.. was the foundation to his life.. his words..

 

and yet he wants to be alone

 

well i have all this to give to someone more deserving..

f him

x

 

Sounds exactly like my situation its so sad isn't it Big hugs to you, its nice to know I'm not alone though

[sultry33]

Sounds exactly like my situation its so sad isn't it Big hugs to you, its nice to know I'm not alone though

 

hi corrine.. love that name

yeah its sad.. bloody hurts still, but i have come to realise that if he loved me

more he would have tried harder.. and im done with trying make it work now. it really is his loss, an yeah i may cry be sad cause i miss him. least im feeling it.

 

thanks for the hug:) stay strong, come talk here

 

hey i had a good hug with a rather tasty 23yr old last night.. lol

been texting me all day.. makes me smile;)

 

psssssssssss. you are not alone

[Corinne]

Its nice to get some attention isn't it although I am only getting sad old men really which makes me miss him more, he was 10 years younger than me so I guess he has a lot of growing up to do.

 

I'm 46 but not in my mind, I went to the Isle of Wight festival which was fantastic! but there were a lot of young blokes looking then noticing the wrinkles and looking away again lol Doesn't matter there is still Love out there for me

[sultry33]

Its nice to get some attention isn't it although I am only getting sad old men really which makes me miss him more, he was 10 years younger than me so I guess he has a lot of growing up to do.

 

I'm 46 but not in my mind, I went to the Isle of Wight festival which was fantastic! but there were a lot of young blokes looking then noticing the wrinkles and looking away again lol Doesn't matter there is still Love out there for me

 

well bad luck to them then if they cant see you for you eh..

im not looking for love.. im looking for fun lol.. love hurts..

currently have 3 maybes lol...

1 is cor.. 28yrs old looks bit like dr jack from lost.. bit strange though.. texts me stuff like he is glad i like him.. but when i see him he is flirty.. but on friday he was watchin his mate.. as his mate fights alot.. he did come over 2 me few times but didnt really speak.. he left early alone.. said hes shy.. but cmon im not chasing hi lol

 

2nd is id say about 26.. fit.. kinda mysterious.. only said that i made him blush.. has not really spoke to me, but stands right in front of me in the club.. he is security.. but its not his patch.. he looks at me my friends confirmed it.. plus he smiles at me.. i like him.

 

3rd... is 23.. bit short lol but funny, friendly.. caring.. said he was worried about me last night arr..

is texting alot and yeah is nice..

 

so thats my life atm.. just have fun;)

[kyta]

yeah just push yourself to get out.. always makes me feel better.. even if i cant afford food for myself for rest of the week lol

 

im from kent.. nr gillingham u?

im nr bath in wiltshire, i feel really good again today, started off bad but as the day went on i do ok, i feel worse in the day times than at nite, when im home alone in the evenings onwards i feel really good , its when i wake up and have to face the day that i feel lonely, nite time are really good not far from piece, mind you for the last few months i was here alone and she was in her house, i really never wanted to stay with her there, i hated it there in the evenings, but was good sometimes in the day so that explains that.

I herad today that they are together now as a cpl, there not just friends that f*ck, i wish him well and all the luck he has, hes 28 she 37 with 5 unruly kids, no discipline not routine, not boundrys, the other day the kids didnt go to school for a day, that was because she let them all sty up till 5am messing around, she has had letters of warning for the noise and parties, mini moto's up and down the road, i am so glad im not there, but i still feel pain.

[sultry33]

im nr bath in wiltshire, i feel really good again today, started off bad but as the day went on i do ok, i feel worse in the day times than at nite, when im home alone in the evenings onwards i feel really good , its when i wake up and have to face the day that i feel lonely, nite time are really good not far from piece, mind you for the last few months i was here alone and she was in her house, i really never wanted to stay with her there, i hated it there in the evenings, but was good sometimes in the day so that explains that.

I herad today that they are together now as a cpl, there not just friends that f*ck, i wish him well and all the luck he has, hes 28 she 37 with 5 unruly kids, no discipline not routine, not boundrys, the other day the kids didnt go to school for a day, that was because she let them all sty up till 5am messing around, she has had letters of warning for the noise and parties, mini moto's up and down the road, i am so glad im not there, but i still feel pain.

 

do you not work atm? as you say daytime is worse..

my ex really wanted everything to be perfect.. u know perfect kids.. house.. but kids are kids they will push boundaries/rules.. yes im soft but he was too strict.. kinda strange really, but when im on my own i cope better with the kids.. i just gave him responsibility as we was a family.. wanted them to respect him and i trusted him.. but he said he wanted cut himself in half so he could be there to help me in the day.. but i didnt mind the kids lol

 

i do miss the night times with him.. we used to go out alot as a couple an i miss that.. miss him worrying about me, caring..

i cant do perfect, perfect kids.. house its just not me.. im happy anyway now

but still miss him.

 

i expect you miss being in a family, even if it was stressful, but must be hard to hear she is doing this with someone else now..

 

for me, i think it will be a long time before i let anyone in my house let alone my heart.. closed the door shut on that.. as i had done before him.

 

seems like your ex cannot cope being on her own.. i hear this alot.

 

im around here in the days so pop in if your feeling down or to say hi..

i need ,my butt kicking sometimes;)

 

i just joined 3 dating sites lol.. how bad am i

dont think i want a date just some interest to keep me sane will do.. have only one friend and she is female.. about 2 male friends and i hate that he has all the friends.. so heres to me socialising

[sultry33]

oops meant to say, im glad you are feeling better:)

[kyta]

oops meant to say, im glad you are feeling better:)

lol, yes im feeling ood again today went to town had a hair cut got my jeans on again, ( they fit again now lost 2 stone) bumped in to ash her son he said she saw me today but i didnt see her she was in a pub lmao, hes ok says he dont like it down there with him and her, says she does what ever he says, but doesnt listen to the kids at all, he hates it so much he just stays at his uncles, im not working at the mo, came off my bike a few weeks back and popped my knee out of joint, joys of off roading, id love to pop in ofr a cuppa but gillingham is a long way off from me.

I do miss the family life kids and screaming and all the crap that comes with it, i miss being cared for as well sort off, but she didnt show me much care, only here and there, so havnt lost much there, funny i dont acutlly miss the relationship at all, it draged me down, i kept fighting for it to work and the more i thought the more it went away, still i know shes not that happy, her son said she is just using him for some one, witch is what i think as well, she is a needy person, hates being on her own, but now she prob cant see a way back so has to stick with him, but at least i know they wont last, just from what i have heard from ppl, shes clinging hes not, she will get fed up soon, or he will with all the crap, but thats there life now so hope they enjoy it.

[sultry33]

lol, yes im feeling ood again today went to town had a hair cut got my jeans on again, ( they fit again now lost 2 stone) bumped in to ash her son he said she saw me today but i didnt see her she was in a pub lmao, hes ok says he dont like it down there with him and her, says she does what ever he says, but doesnt listen to the kids at all, he hates it so much he just stays at his uncles, im not working at the mo, came off my bike a few weeks back and popped my knee out of joint, joys of off roading, id love to pop in ofr a cuppa but gillingham is a long way off from me.

I do miss the family life kids and screaming and all the crap that comes with it, i miss being cared for as well sort off, but she didnt show me much care, only here and there, so havnt lost much there, funny i dont acutlly miss the relationship at all, it draged me down, i kept fighting for it to work and the more i thought the more it went away, still i know shes not that happy, her son said she is just using him for some one, witch is what i think as well, she is a needy person, hates being on her own, but now she prob cant see a way back so has to stick with him, but at least i know they wont last, just from what i have heard from ppl, shes clinging hes not, she will get fed up soon, or he will with all the crap, but thats there life now so hope they enjoy it.

 

hi well done on the weight loss, thats great:bunny:

 

must be hard hearing about her life .. least i dont have that..

hey we can have a virtual coffee;)

im sunbathing in my garden tomorrow.. woo hoo in my bikini..

may even buy a paddling pool.. time to scare the neighbours..

not been in my garden for over 4 months as my dog died and also been too down really.. but one day at a time.. we can get there x

[kyta]

Well i was feeling good today untill tonight, i got a call form her sister, saying that she asked me to stop following her around town, i havent even seen her, she saw me walking through town, she trying to make me out to be following her and her daughter around, that i cant let go of her, and i have no friends, shes the one with no friends, she cant make them as she just pisses everyone she meets off, it got back to her yesterday that i had a new gf, i dont i was just in town with a friend, she is a pretty girl nice and slim young 27 all we did was do a bit of shopping, so why now am i getting all the **** stiring, she got her new guy, im not contacting her, not doing anything except trying to move on with my life, yet it looks like she doesnt like it very much, or am i just assuming she cant let go, more confusion.

A virtual coffee sounds great, sham i wasnt closer id come see u in ur bikini lol, i dout u would scare the neibours.

It doesnt really make it hard hearing about her as im not hearing much, and i dont really care what she does now, just wish she would leave me alone, she has nothing in her life and all she seems to do it live in **** stiring trouble, thats why i wanted it over, now it is i still have to live with the ****.

[sultry33]

Well i was feeling good today untill tonight, i got a call form her sister, saying that she asked me to stop following her around town, i havent even seen her, she saw me walking through town, she trying to make me out to be following her and her daughter around, that i cant let go of her, and i have no friends, shes the one with no friends, she cant make them as she just pisses everyone she meets off, it got back to her yesterday that i had a new gf, i dont i was just in town with a friend, she is a pretty girl nice and slim young 27 all we did was do a bit of shopping, so why now am i getting all the **** stiring, she got her new guy, im not contacting her, not doing anything except trying to move on with my life, yet it looks like she doesnt like it very much, or am i just assuming she cant let go, more confusion.

A virtual coffee sounds great, sham i wasnt closer id come see u in ur bikini lol, i dout u would scare the neibours.

It doesnt really make it hard hearing about her as im not hearing much, and i dont really care what she does now, just wish she would leave me alone, she has nothing in her life and all she seems to do it live in **** stiring trouble, thats why i wanted it over, now it is i still have to live with the ****.

 

hey you should change your number;)

no more drama.. its her life now her bed let her lie in it.. dont get angry dont do anything..

 

do you have sugar? milk?

i like coffee i have 2 coffee machines lol

i have good days an bad too.. was bit upset this afternoon when in my garden..

thought about our last holiday:(

 

anyway.. i haVE RED patches now due to sunburn lol.. going to top it up in the morning;)

[kyta]

Well i went to the police station today and told them what i have heard and that im worried about her trying to cause me trouble, they just said top not go nr her, and then when in town with 2 of my friends we walk round the corner and there she was walking towards us holding hands with her new guy, i just put my head down and didnt look at her, i did feel a bit weird and hurt but not as much as i thought i would, im more worried about the police and trouble she may cause than her, at least i know i was rite about her, and i know i wont be going back to her, she has had her chances now, she has burnt all her bridges.

no worries about the sugar and milk ill bring it, red patches, not good u need an all over tan lol, i know we all hae the up and down days, but everyday that goes by is a day closer to our happiness, must be hard to think of ur holidays, i try not to think of things like that, still hope ur feeling better now.

[sultry33]

Well i went to the police station today and told them what i have heard and that im worried about her trying to cause me trouble, they just said top not go nr her, and then when in town with 2 of my friends we walk round the corner and there she was walking towards us holding hands with her new guy, i just put my head down and didnt look at her, i did feel a bit weird and hurt but not as much as i thought i would, im more worried about the police and trouble she may cause than her, at least i know i was rite about her, and i know i wont be going back to her, she has had her chances now, she has burnt all her bridges.

no worries about the sugar and milk ill bring it, red patches, not good u need an all over tan lol, i know we all hae the up and down days, but everyday that goes by is a day closer to our happiness, must be hard to think of ur holidays, i try not to think of things like that, still hope ur feeling better now.

 

yeah you did the right thing seeking advice from police as it will be logged then.

luckily my ex lives over 50miles away so not much chance bumping into him.. although id be bad if there was.. u know short skirts the lot lol;)

 

i just went out today on spur of moment.. went shopping bought few outfits

to cover up my red patches.. think i just cheat with all over tan..

 

im doing better than last week

 

hope you get out an have fun this weekend.. hey its nearly here:bunny:

[kyta]

I feel really good tonite again, i feel something has changed in me, i feel diffrent, hopefully this is a chnage to last, i been out all nite with some friends and then to another friends a girl, nothing in it between us just friends, but we can both be open with each other and its has helped me, thats the friend i was seen in town the young pretty one lmao but if they want to twist what they saw then there problem, glad you feel better, wish mine lived 50 miles away,but hopefully no more **** from them but we will c, its nice to go shopping, does cheer you up i love it, i do feel tired tonite dint get much sleep last nite to stressed with all the **** stiring so drinking my glas of wine then bed and sleep spk tomoz nite nite.

[sultry33]

I feel really good tonite again, i feel something has changed in me, i feel diffrent, hopefully this is a chnage to last, i been out all nite with some friends and then to another friends a girl, nothing in it between us just friends, but we can both be open with each other and its has helped me, thats the friend i was seen in town the young pretty one lmao but if they want to twist what they saw then there problem, glad you feel better, wish mine lived 50 miles away,but hopefully no more **** from them but we will c, its nice to go shopping, does cheer you up i love it, i do feel tired tonite dint get much sleep last nite to stressed with all the **** stiring so drinking my glas of wine then bed and sleep spk tomoz nite nite.

 

its good to have friends espically hot ones;)

im going out with my friend tomo night.. was considering not going as few yrs ago he kinda freaked me out a bit as hes into me, but im not him.. i thought we was just friends.. clubbing buddies but he freaked when i danced with another guy.. but recently met him again and he is in need of cheering up.. he broke up 18months ago.. and only just starting to go out.. sod that:eek:

 

so he wants to go for drink and gossip.. im hoping thats all:bunny:

 

had some bad news today that i may have go hospital next week.. im really dreading it.. my ex came with me last time.. now im going alone:(

and im super scared..

 

will have to have operation, but doctor is confirming on tuesday..

 

hopefully they will give me lots of happy gas eh.. wipe the pain for a bit.

 

you know what makes it harder for me is that im doing nc ok..

im going out trying have fun.. smiling.. put on the brave face..

yet everyone i know says have you heard from him yet?

i wish i could just move away where noone knows me then id stop having to bloody answer.. no!

makes me feel fanbloodytastic

 

sooooooo my rant over.. what you drinking? white red pink:eek:

any plans this weekend?

hugs to u an all x

[kyta]

Yes good friends do help, and a bonus if they r hot lol, sry to hear about op i hope it all goes well for you, it does do my head everyone asking if i have heard from , why should i she is with some one bloody else, why the hell would she want to talk to me now, so now i tell them dont want to hear her name, 24 nc so far, i know seeing her didnt help much, but woke up this morning and felt great, slept really nice, as i said something seems to hae changed in me yesterday after seeing her, and i feel a lot better than be4, hopefully not going to have much more pain for her, well not feeling pain now, but u know what i mean.

I was dirinking a glass of white wine, but my fav drink is tequila, it really does have the answers lol, the sun is shining and im going out to see some friends, hope you feeling better today, they really arnt worth it, we r worth so much more, no plans yet for the wkend, but am thinking of going out we will c.

Have a good day and spk later, do you have msn? if you do maybe you would like to add me its [email protected], any one else want to add me to chat feel free.

[sultry33]

hi thanks i added you..

do you think you are maybe relieved now your away from it all?

i know i kinda felt relieved that i wasnt constantly thinking.. what is he thinking.. does he want it like this.. blar blar..

 

i dont think of him as much now.. more i miss him but thats all really.

 

just done some gardening.. washing. housework. boring stuff

thinking of doing open university again as will occupy my brain.

 

i dont really have friends to hang out with everyday as i like my space too much plus noone that close really.. im a funny girl;)

 

years ago my best friend an me used to drink tequilla.. very bad but good for brain wiping

my email/msn for anyone .. not got many friends

[email protected]

 

have a good day too

[kyta]

hi thanks i added you..

do you think you are maybe relieved now your away from it all?

i know i kinda felt relieved that i wasnt constantly thinking.. what is he thinking.. does he want it like this.. blar blar..

 

i dont think of him as much now.. more i miss him but thats all really.

 

just done some gardening.. washing. housework. boring stuff

thinking of doing open university again as will occupy my brain.

 

i dont really have friends to hang out with everyday as i like my space too much plus noone that close really.. im a funny girl;)

 

years ago my best friend an me used to drink tequilla.. very bad but good for brain wiping

my email/msn for anyone .. not got many friends

[email protected]

 

have a good day too

 

 

Yes i do feel relevied not being in that relationship, im feeling realy good today, its really only been 4 wks since we have broke up, i know i shouldnt be feeling like this yet, its like im reaching acceptance stage, hope so hehe, im not missing her at all, im glad in a way that its over, i have to face my fear now, and i dont feel scared of it, i only stayed for the wrong reasons, just like loads of ppl out there now in a relationship they shouldnt be in, i even seen them today again in town but they didnt c me and i felt nothing really, strange how i feel, im hoping its not just a up cpl days, but i am pleased the relationship is over now.

[sultry33]

hi, i think we all have good an bad days but.. everyone has different time span to being completly ok..

 

tonight for instance was a good night with my friend steve.. we talked loads.. could actually hear him for a change, he talked loads about his ex.. her kids.. his life, how he hit rock bottom.. came back up.. he hasnt seen her in a year..

i was supportive but thought blimey a year.. he then said they moved in after only knowing each other 10hrs:eek: i thought omg no wonder it never worked out.

we talked about my split.. what we been doing for last 4yrs etc, was a good night, he asked what my type was an i told him.. he was kind off saying we like same things.. etc which did make me worry slightly, but i said id be a terrible gf.. i like my own life too much etc..

 

he has invited me out sat toa family do that he dont want to go alone too.

i said ok, but im hoping he dont want anymore than friendship..

he said you never get with anyone from club.. i said no i still love my ex so no point..

so do you think its ok?

do you think im leading him on?

id hate to hurt him but i like him alot as a friend:)

[sultry33]

morning love shackers.. just thought id update you and say im doing better

yeah still kinda miss him but im having alot of fun atm.. been talking to a couple really cool guys and heartache is something we share.. so together we are getting stronger..

 

i have stopped counting as i dont want reminder of how little he thinks of me:mad:

 

but i know its about 3 weeks .. i have had a few silent calls.. no number

but hey does it hurt to speak?

 

be strong it does help and get your happy face on.. i have new picture and yeah its the new me.. happy

 

how is everyone doing?

 

hugs to all x

[foxh1234]

morning love shackers.. just thought id update you and say im doing better

yeah still kinda miss him but im having alot of fun atm.. been talking to a couple really cool guys and heartache is something we share.. so together we are getting stronger..

 

i have stopped counting as i dont want reminder of how little he thinks of me:mad:

 

but i know its about 3 weeks .. i have had a few silent calls.. no number

but hey does it hurt to speak?

 

be strong it does help and get your happy face on.. i have new picture and yeah its the new me.. happy

 

how is everyone doing?

 

hugs to all x

 

Hi Sultry, glad to hear your doing OK, I am also doing better. Time does indeed heal. Your new picture looks great.

[sultry33]

Hi Sultry, glad to hear your doing OK, I am also doing better. Time does indeed heal. Your new picture looks great.

 

hi fox, im so glad we stayed strong.. really does help dont it.. i remember when i first posted.. people were telling me to move on.. go nc i was like but i love him!

 

but even though i miss him i know its right..

and thanks.. im actually feeling great too x

hugs to you x

[lolobear]

sultry is it getting easier? i'm considering a breakup, and I was wondering how long the hot and cold feelings of "no i need him" and "i'm a strong woman" go on for. those feelings just seem like too much for me to handle..and the most i've had to deal with that for was 2 days.