pickingupthepieces Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 Hmmmmm.... have you ever had a day where you just hate the world?.... SINCE our breakup EVERYONE I know is either now engaged or married. I thought for awhile I was just thinking that because I am now UN-engaged! and am just noticing these things now because they stick out. Even my friends have noticed. I mean I AM happy for them... but so sad for myself at the same time! I can"t seem to get it out of my head. Everyone's situations make me miss him. I know I am good on my own and that I don't NEED him..... AUGH.... I was having a fine day....but am now so sad that I don't get to experience the fairytale ending!!! LOL I'm so depressing!
Tabatha Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 Yea, I've actually have had my moments of being sad when I saw another couple being so happy and so "in love". Still to this day I wonder, when I see couples, "How come they made it together this long, and what was wrong with me that I couldn't with him?" And you gotta look at it too as, people get married for the wrong reasons. They may be happy now, but in the next few years it won't be the same. People get divorced left and right because they rush into marriage with just the feelings of well I love him and that should be all that holds us together. Wrong. Marriage is a huge commitment and you got to be prepared for it (not saying you weren't). They may have their fairytale now, but most likely it's not always a happy ending. It will come in time. When the moment is right.
kizik Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 I don't know, lately I feel kinda sorry for couples. They have to be with the SAME person all the time, worry about making them mad, etc. There are a LOT of unhappy couples out there, mind you. And I'm no longer a part of that!
Author pickingupthepieces Posted June 20, 2008 Author Posted June 20, 2008 I think its just my loneliness sneaking up on me!! It also probably that I have seen him and what not... I bet if I would of kept NC it would affect me half as bad. It just made me want to call him up and tell him that SO and SO finally got engaged.. but really he doesn't need to know that.. he barely knows them. I guess I am just so used to sharing with him still. OH well.. SHAKE it off and keep moving.. RIGHT?? *If I didn't break NC though... I would still think he hated me and had moved... which well... would suck!
e.clipse Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 i hate the world every day. usually, though, i remedy rough nights with a lot of whiskey. like tonight. and last night. and the night before that.
Touche Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 i hate the world every day. usually, though, i remedy rough nights with a lot of whiskey. like tonight. and last night. and the night before that. waaa, booo, hooo...so sad. Anyway, sorry pickingup. Sucks. I've been there. I've never really told anyone on here about it. But yeah...I've been where you are. Sucks. Know what though? One day you'll be laughing at this. I swear. Trust me on that one. There's a real strong spirit about you that comes through. You're going to be fine. I can tell.
Author pickingupthepieces Posted June 21, 2008 Author Posted June 21, 2008 Hey Carrot.... Well I'm not all caught up with everyone elses lives... I'm just sad for no apparent reason.. well I think its because I haven't talked to the X for a couple of days. He called me last but I missed it. I called him tonight (didn't even have a reason... so I feel stupid now!) but got no answer. I knew I wouldn't get ahold of him.. its Friday night!! I don't want to seem needy... or to available so am MAD at myself for calling.. weak moment I suppose. I just miss him... I am thinking just to leave it until next week when I actually have some time off so I can see him. I don't know if its a good idea.. but we'll see. This working two jobs stuff is exhausting! One call when he called last, when we haven't talked in a couple days isn't TOO available is it??? MAN I hope not! You know a month ago... I would never of been like this but he creeped his way back in and I need to focus on myself instead of all of this. Any suggestions on how to get back to me? So how are things with GD? Patients I suppose... but I am the MOST impatient person EVER!
borelandkaren Posted June 21, 2008 Posted June 21, 2008 Hey Carrot.... Well I'm not all caught up with everyone elses lives... I'm just sad for no apparent reason.. well I think its because I haven't talked to the X for a couple of days. He called me last but I missed it. I called him tonight (didn't even have a reason... so I feel stupid now!) but got no answer. I knew I wouldn't get ahold of him.. its Friday night!! I don't want to seem needy... or to available so am MAD at myself for calling.. weak moment I suppose. I just miss him... I am thinking just to leave it until next week when I actually have some time off so I can see him. I don't know if its a good idea.. but we'll see. This working two jobs stuff is exhausting! One call when he called last, when we haven't talked in a couple days isn't TOO available is it??? MAN I hope not! You know a month ago... I would never of been like this but he creeped his way back in and I need to focus on myself instead of all of this. Any suggestions on how to get back to me? So how are things with GD? Patients I suppose... but I am the MOST impatient person EVER! One thing to take into account is lack of sleep or exhaustion. This can make us irrational, so make sure you're getting enough rest. Can't think properly without sleep. I know this well. Getting up at 5am daily and finishing my second job at midnight! Crazy. We all need our sleep. Take care.
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