Pluto Posted June 16, 2008 Posted June 16, 2008 I can't think of a decent title to my thread. I'll start off with some background detail without going into too much detail. I have had a pretty though three or so years, it started when I was 16, I was angst ridden teenager, bored, miserable and generally frustrated with life, my school work suffered as a result and I just became this recluse. I was scruffy looking and generally a mess on both the inside and outside, I would listen to bands like Joy Division, The Smiths, Pearl Jam and others constantly in my room where I became obsessed with a famous J.D Salinger novel and a famous Stephen Chobsky novel. I have since made changes and began to turn my life around about a year ago and it has paid dividends. I can safely say that part of my life is behind me, I learnt from it and I have become a better person, even if I still have my moments of misery and angst. I changed my style of clothing, and my style of hair and I feel so much sexier and more handsome, it's done wonders with for my self esteem and women now look at me more often. I smile a lot more because I am generally very happy, I have learnt to accept myself and I have learnt to love myself, two very important aspects in life. I am also less shy, despite a few hick ups and lapses and I am generally a better communicator from working with customers and attending college where I knew no one. My social skills have imporved four folds. It seems perfect doesn't it? There is just one little thing that's bugging me. I have tamed down and become a lot more mature. I still display goofy behaviour at times and I am still very funny. But I have always been called funny, hilarious and an all around decent guy (I dispute the decent guy bit, because I have millions of faults). I have always had a strong personality and character that people instantly warmed to and I believe it was my wit and sense of humour that was the the root cause of this warmth that I gained. However it seems to have diluted a lot as I have grown older, I mean I still have it, its still there, but it appears less often than I'd like. I used to be able to sit down at a table and make people's side split for hours, especially with my rants about falling down escalators and almost getting run over by a 4x4 when day dreaming about playing guitar alongside Noel Gallagher. It just seems now that my personality isn't as strong as it was it was. I don't think anyone has noticed it, because I still make people laugh and people still refer to me a quirky and crazy, but I can't help but believe I have lost an integral part of me, that made me; well me. I just want it to be a bitter more prominent than it is at the moment, I just want to know how I can get it back, it was truly my best selling point. I feel a bit upset about it.
daphne Posted June 19, 2008 Posted June 19, 2008 You dilute even further the older you get. lol. Sorry, but it's just growing up. I used to be extremely sharp, with an elitist wit that got the better of everyone. I made a conscious decision that I didn't want to have to be on the defensive all of the time (which is what you have to be when you're witty) and tamed that side down. I became a lot more relaxed and learned to let go of other people's bs a lot better. Unfortunately, I never got the wit back and I'm not nearly as razor sharp intelligent as I used to be. You have to accept teh other side of the coin to taming down your personality.
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