ARDriver01 Posted June 16, 2008 Posted June 16, 2008 Oh man, I've been off my medicine for a while now. I've been neglecting to fill my perscription. I don't know why. I'm over the brain zaps part of the come off, but my mind recoils in terror all day long over little things. My girlfriend took out to see some baby chicks in her back yard after a cigarette and I kinda paniced. Not noticable. It's just how I feel inside. like I'm toxic, radioactive waste. I'll have really great highs and then I get really, really depressed and terrified. I feel like my life is going to end soon, like something bad is going to happen. I'm almost through a really bad divorce from an abusive psychopath, I jumped into a live in relationship too fast and had to break that off recently. It was totally the right move but I still feel pretty bad about it, like I hurt someone. Now I'm in a relationship with the "right" girl for once in my life and it's moving at a really healthy pace, but now I find myself freaking the eff out in my mind. I've been trying to set up some kind of session with my doctor. I stopped seeing him after I got together with the last girl. Now I need to see him and I've been calling him for weeks now. He won't get back to me for long periods of time and he says he's always booked. I leave the same message everyday for him. Oh man. I just want to jump out of my skin.
whichwayisup Posted June 17, 2008 Posted June 17, 2008 Call your family Dr and go see him/her about the meds. And, start looking for another therapist, because this one seems to not have time for you. Have you thought about just taking a break from relationships for a while? You've been through heck and back and to be honest, "you" are not "you" yet and let's not forget the emotional baggage that's still inside you. Being in a relationship right now may not be a healthy thing for you ..
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