stlnsmile Posted June 14, 2008 Posted June 14, 2008 Okay so remember how I posted about how the ex's new gf keeps driving by my house, yup, she did again yesterday. So may father, funny man that he is, was out there talking to a neighbor, waved at her and mouthed "Hi M***"...so funny. Wonder if she will keep doing it. She must be so darn insecure that I live on the same street and she doesn't:lmao: I'm amazed that he would deal with someone so insecure. But his problem I guess. Secondly, my ex had this graduation trip scheduled, and when we were together it always upset me that his parents never said "hey, you wanna go too, if you pay" sort of thing, they always excluded me from his life in sooo many ways....well I just want to say, new girls not going either, its still the same old boys club in that family that it always was. I guess it just makes me realize that as much as things change, things stay the same. People don't change. I makes me feel so much more confidant about everything. The other thing I have to say, is the ex looks soooo bad, he has lost soooo much weight, and now this once stunning large athlete looks anorexic, and I have to say in all honesty, I am really worried about his health. I don't want him, but I don't hate him, and I don't want him to be this unhealthy. Its really scaring me. It makes me so mad, his parents used to push him and push him physically until he was so sleep deprived he had circles under his eyes, and his mother always harped on food...she was psycho controlling about food...long story, his brother was anorexic....but what I know and what hurts me, is I know no one gives a crap, his new girl obviously does not care if he is unhealthy and neither do his parents. I guess it upsets me because he is a good person and deserves so much better. I really feel that he was at his best with me, and now....now...he's falling apart and no one seems to notice. I can do nothing about it, its not my job anymore, he doesn't want me to, and I can't any more...but why can't these stupid people see what has happened to him? I'm afraid he is going to get seriously ill. I guess I can't worry about it.....I have to let it go. Its hard. I wonder if anyone can understand at all what it feels like. To care about someone enough to only want the best for them, even if thats not you. God if any of you could have seen how beautiful he was before, and what he looks like now.....you would be worried too. There is nothing I can do...so helpless.
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