Accepting That It's Over

[Tabatha]

I'm sorry

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I don't want you to ever be frustrated with me. I just feel like everything is getting out of control.

 

I just wanted to spend time with you before I moved to Montana, because I am definately going. It will be in like a month and a half to two months, though.

 

You're going to have me out of your life completely when I go. You won't see me except when I come back every so often and on Holidays. Unless, you wanted to visit me.

 

It's hard for me to accept that I won't ever be apart of your life. I'm sorry that our paths in life have to seperate. I got to do this for me. Like you broke up with me for you. I got to take control of my life and make it something good instead of being stuck in this rut.

 

It's just hard for me to accept that I don't get to see you as often as I use to, and when I leave I won't ever see you, until a very longtime.

 

You are what kept me here and not in Oregon, because I knew I was going to lose someone I would do anything for. I would give my life for just to make you happy. But now I regret it, because I did really lose you because I stayed and continued to be stuck in my rut. If I did leave, atleast I would've left knowing that you truly cared and loved for me as a Significant Other and a Girlfriend. I would've left knowing you thought of me, and missed me, because I was the one you Loved.

 

But now, when I leave, I leave knowing you MIGHT miss me and MIGHT think of me occassionally. I just don't want you to wake up one day and you not remember who I am. That's all. Hopefully, I leave knowing that you are my friend, and that you could count on me if you need anything.

 

You've told me twice already to Let You Go If I Really Loved You. I am really trying. It is so hard. I love you very much David. More than I really loved anybody. I can't stop crying knowing I will be 2,000 miles away from you. Knowing I can't be there for you Physically. Knowing I can't kiss you or hug you. Knowing I can't ever cuddle up next to you and watch t.v.

 

I hate the way things turned out. We were doing so good. It's just hard to accept that things are pushing you away because of the way my mother treats you. Those are uncontrollable situations. I already called her tonight and got into it with her, screamed, and pleaded with her to just STOP. For once all I want her to do is let me live my own life and let me make my own decisions without her pulling me away from people I Love. Just because she doesn't like you, doesn't mean she can't just be happy for me, because I was happy with you, and that's all that should've mattered with her. But it didn't.

 

 

So please, that's all I wanted. Was to spend time with you. I am going to miss you so bad it's going to hurt. Im not going to be able to sleep at night knowing you are not 15 minutes away anymore. You'll be 2,000 miles away. You'll be a 5 hour flight away. You'll be a two day drive away. I'll be far away and so will you.

 

I'm committed to this already. So there is no backing out. I promised my cousin I will be there. Once I have the money for the plane ticket and the first months rent, I'm Gone. No turning back.

 

I will really Miss You David. It's been stressful, frustrating, and devastating at times, but over all it's been an experience I'll never forget. I'm so happy that I got the pleasure of meeting you and having you in my life. You were an awesome Boyfriend and a wonderful guy who treated me better than anyone else could. I Love you so much.

 

I Open my hands and let you spread your Wings. So now Fly, Your Free.

 

xoxo

[justaman99]

Mkes me a little sad. Sounds to me like he let a really smart thoughtful caring beautiful woman go. Best in Montana.

 

-Just

[Tabatha]

Mkes me a little sad. Sounds to me like he let a really smart thoughtful caring beautiful woman go. Best in Montana.

 

-Just

 

Thank You

 

It took alot for me to write that. It was one of those letters you type, and you bawl your eyes out from start to finish with your heart in pain.

 

He said, "If you care and love for me as much as you say you do, Let me Go, "

 

Okay Babe, I'm letting you go. You are free to move on, as requested. I'll be moving on too, just in another direction and State.

[justaman99]

Well guys there's a good one that will be in Montana soon in case anyone's up there.