claycald Posted June 12, 2008 Posted June 12, 2008 ok i tend to give alot of details so bear with me and please respond. about 2 months ago i had been praying to god wiether or not i should get in contact with my ex who left me. it was hard for her as much as it was hard for me. i had stopped speaking to her for about 8 months. i got the sign to write her so i did. i stated i just wanted to be friends and something tells me i should write her. the day she got it she wrote me back. we have been speaking sense then. she is real happy we are speaking again. she wants to speak on the phone, she has agreed to go do something with me as soon as she turns 18 and comes back to the country. she even was going to send me an invitation to her graduation until i said it probably wasnt a good idea because her parents hate me. i saw her that night anyway. her face lit up so bright and she hugged me but then ran off to find her friends to say good bye. but i found out she has a boyfriend. she got with him 5 months after we broke up and 3 months after i went no contact with her. what make it worse is they had been friends for years before they got together. but she never looked at him like that because she was with me for 80% of that time. i know she knows i love her still by how i speak to her. i have appologized how i acted with her before she left me and gave her the explanation as to why i went no contact for so long. she forgave me for how i acted but said it doesnt change anything. but thanked me for telling her now. about the no contact thing she got upset over it because her best friend and other of her closest friends had been lying to me about her to keep me away from her. i feel like i should stick around no matter what but im afraid i will get hurt worse in the future but at the same time have this feeling in me that everything will be okay eventually. idk i have a connection with spirits that make me feel this way. they have always been right before. call me crazy on that all you want i believe it. what should i expect?
Habibti Posted June 12, 2008 Posted June 12, 2008 Can I ask what you did that she can't forgive you for? Or, I guess I'm at a loss to understand WHY your relationship ended..could you tell me?
Author claycald Posted June 12, 2008 Author Posted June 12, 2008 at the time i had been pressuring her into having her let me go to college with her. we live in south texas and she kept talking about going to Philly or new york or somewhere else far far away. i had been stressed about it for about a month and kept at the nagging if though she kept saying no. it never got into a heated arguement. well i had stopped speaking about it because i changed my mind and decieded she should go and we will work through it like we did with everything else. but before i could tell her she broke up with me crying hardcore and begging me to stay her friend. then asked for a kiss. so a few weeks ago i told her how i felt about how was acting with her and told her why i did it.
Author claycald Posted June 13, 2008 Author Posted June 13, 2008 wait... i just noticed u said can't forgive. she has forgiven me on the issue... just i guess it aint enough
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