sultry33 Posted June 11, 2008 Posted June 11, 2008 holding on... still posted on here as was in coping well tonight let down again.. damn.. he says work and yes i know its work but right now im feeling angry let down blar blar.. i had tried breaking away from him.. said if i dont hear from you then its ok i understand you dont want to see me anymore.. he replied again saying its been frantic.. busy with work.. then HE suggested tonight.. but as above he had to stay on.. being a policeman yes no bloody choice.. plus time he will finish will be no time left for him to see me plus sleep.. had my hair done.. tan.. relaxed.. chilled.. bought new top.. lol i said ok... nothing else.. he then said i know your angry.. so am i.. i have day off monday i can see you then! xxx damn... i hate being needy.. i decided to not ask him.. see what happens then he suggests the day and no event.. so monday it is.. if not im done i really wanted this to work you know.. no living together just being together, but its sooo hard when you cant see the other person. some will say move on! i have tried but its not what i want.. i want us to be the couple we was.. i want to be me again not some fit in babe.. i know he does not see me like this but this feels this way.. im sure he still wants me or he would ignore me.. like i said to do.. why would he reply if he doesnt? any thoughts? bit background.. he left in march said house..ie small.. kids-- teenager a pain.. work too far for him to travel.. i faced eviction.. too much stress so he left.. said loved me.. still does since then after 4weeks we met talked said we wanted to do the no living together just see each other.. but he very busy with work.. car shows as he is rep.. and policeman.. seen each other roughly every 2-3 weeks i do believe him.. just frustrating too x
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