surgngnl Posted June 10, 2008 Posted June 10, 2008 i can't concentrate. i can't relax. i can't feel rested. i can't feel happy. i can't carry on a conversation. i can't work. i can't breathe. i can't sleep through the night. i can't get motivated. i'm on medication, but it's not working and until i can go back to the doctor, i need some insight as to how to get through the next few days without losing everything i've worked so hard for. really. i am at work now, but i have yet to do anything constructive, nor can i concentrate long enough to begin doing something work-like. then, when i go home at 6:00, i'll sit on my couch and cry for hours, with breaks in between to watch some stupid tv show until i fall asleep at 9:00 (which is super early for a youngun like myself). and when i fall asleep, i'll wake up about 5 times before i have to get up at 8:00. once i get up, i'll cry again in the shower, get dressed for work without doing my hair or putting on make up. when i get to work, i'll sit and stare at the wall for a few hours until lunch. in the meantime, friends will call me, i won't answer, i'll back out of any plans i may have made a few days/weeks ago and i'll avoid anyone else that may come my way. how do i deal? if you know depression, you know how f*cking hard it is to actually make yourself do the things that you know need to be done. i just want to crawl under my desk and stay put until 6:00 so that then i can go home and cry on my couch until i fitfully sleep. blah.
Ronni_W Posted June 11, 2008 Posted June 11, 2008 Hey there. Sorry it's taken so long for someone to respond to your post. I hope it went a bit better for you, today. It sucks to feel so low and have to wait on a doctor's appointment. You deserve better and more timely help than that, that's for sure. So I Googled "mental health seattle" -- at bottom are phone numbers for different resources. Please keep in mind that I know nothing about these organizations. You may want to do your own Google search. If you can't find the strength for that, though, I do urge you to call one of the listed numbers. You had it in you to type and submit this post, so you already have evidence that you also have it in you to make this phone call. Best of luck. I hope you find the help that you deserve and need, and that you'll feel better. Ronni Crisis Clinic: 206-461-3222. Toll free: 1-866-4CRISIS (1-866-427-4747) 24-hour counseling for persons in crisis. Confidential. Website: crisisclinic.org Besides the crisis line itself, their Community Information Line is probably the best all-purpose referral number in Seattle. (1-800-621-4636, 206-461-3200, or simply 2-1-1) 8am-6pm, M-F Also, Teen Link Line is staffed by teen volunteers trained by Crisis Clinic staff. (206-461-4922 or 1-866-TEENLINK [1-866-833-6546]) 6pm-10pm daily EDITED TO ADD: All that stuff is from the Google link -- I just 'cut & paste'
CailinPig Posted June 11, 2008 Posted June 11, 2008 I was depressed for a while and I think I may still be, just not as bad. Have you tried writing everything into a diary? It's very therapeutic for me. It gives me the kick up the a** I so often need. Tell me, what do you want from your life in the future. What would make you happy?
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