stlnsmile Posted June 4, 2008 Posted June 4, 2008 I don't know how to explain it all, but I have been doing really well. Its been weeks since I have given much time or thought to my ex. I've been really busy with my family and friends and school, and just don't have time in my life really to think about the ex. I feel pretty good:) I still miss him occassionally, but that sort of stopped the day I realized my ex did not love me at all. Duhhh, I know, but I think sometimes it just takes a while to really realize that. I just know that I would never ever do to someone that I care the least about, the things that he did to me. And I guess that sort of freed me to go on with my life and do what I needed to do for me. And this is the interesting part, no sooner do I really let go, not that it does not hurt on occassion, he was my first love and all, but I really feel free now...., no sooner do I not give a crud anymore, and his girl friend starts driving by my house. And I don't mean one or two drive bys out of curriosity, I mean we are on like 10 drive bys now. My dad keeps seeing her while he is mowing the grass, or working in the yard. My mom keeps seeing her too. Obviously if she was blissfully happy and completely secure in her relationship with him, and felt he loved her 100%, she would not feel any need to drive by my house. Once she drove by to check and see if he was with me...because my dad drove up the street a few minutes later, and he was not at home. She lives a long way from here, and he wasn't even home, and she drove by to see if he was here? I am LMAO:) I don't care anymore, its their problem, I just find it amusing, he left me because he thought I was clinggy and insecure and not as good as he was, and oh, my dad saw this girl, she's fat and ugly he said...why do ex's always do that...go for someone less than what you were? Anyway, she obviously is not as athletic as I am or as secure as I am. I find its really really funny. I actually feel sorry for them both. I mean, her, because she has no idea what she is getting into with his parents, his mom, I have no doubt, is probably using me to make her insane and insecure:) She also has no idea who my ex really is. And I feel sorry for him, because, he is not going to be happy with someone who is so jelous, we never had that problem in our relationship. I mean I just was never that way. I think this girl is a ball buster, and I feel sorry for him, cause he lost me, the best thing that ever happened to him, and I was at least hoping he was going to be happy as a result. Well, hopefully they will work it out, cause I don't care anymore, I am happy for the first time in a long time and looking forward to so much. Leaving for the beach today...Yeay!
foxh1234 Posted June 4, 2008 Posted June 4, 2008 Congrats on getting over it and feeling so much better. I hope to feel like you as soon as possible. Moving on and enjoying life again is the top priority.
LikeCharlotte Posted June 4, 2008 Posted June 4, 2008 The sun always comes up. I'm happy that it has for you. Maybe you will meet a new cutie at the beach? Have fun.
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