shurtugal93 Posted June 4, 2008 Posted June 4, 2008 [FONT='새]I love Pascal since February last year. We had a lot in common so we became friends quickly [/FONT] [FONT='새]but he started going out with Alice in April. Nobody had known he loved her; not even his best friend. After a few days he realized I love him because I was crying a lot and all. Starting then, when I was sad, he always came and said he was sorry and that he didn't mean to hurt me. He said I'm his friend so he cares about me. Then he broke up with Alice over the summer. I heard him telling my friend that she wasn't 'what he was looking for'. After we went back to school, for several weeks he talked a real lot to me and joked around with me, laughing at all my jokes too, then suddenly the amount of conversations we had decreased. He started treating me differently from other girls; normally he'd play pranks on them and joke around a lot, but to me, he'd make a joke or say something mean then say 'I was kidding!' with a smile. He said that he thinks he saw me at an airport. I caught him staring at me several times but he would always turn away. He started standing in line beside me at lunch, he asked me to help him with homework & once when we met he kept asking me to come earlier, he talked to my friends a lot, he asked my friend why I was crying (I did once because Pascal's friend, Stefan, was teasing me if I still loved him) and came over and said 'I don't know what Stefan told you, but I'm sorry for it...' then he lectured Stefan that he shouldn't laugh when someone's crying because of him. During art class when my friend offered to help me he said "I can do it better than YOU." & pushed her away and started helping me. He started acting like he actually loved me. All my friends told me I better confess, so I decided to do it, in November. For several days I sent him love poems. Then, one day, on MSN:[/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: Is it you who's been sending me love poems? You loved me last year so...[/FONT] [FONT='새]Me: That wasn't love, I've realized. Anyways, how should I know who sent you those poems? Ask someone else. You're really popular huh?[/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: I don't like being 'popular'. It makes me uncomfortable... But I thought it should be you... They're so well written, and you're the only one who can write like that in our class.[/FONT] [FONT='새]Me: Well I don't know, ask someone else. Anyway, why do you want to know? Do you love someone?[/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: Well no.[/FONT] [FONT='새]Me: Then I think it'd be better if you didn't ask around. If you got to know who it is and talked to her about it, she would be hurt since you don't love her.[/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: Yeah ok. It's better if I don't know then...[/FONT] [FONT='새]But after this, he went and asked THREE of my friends if it was me. Several days later, I met up with him in front of his house:[/FONT] [FONT='새]Me: Hey![/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: Hey! (starts walking to his house)[/FONT] [FONT='새]Me: Um... Wait up. It was me.[/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: What...?[/FONT] [FONT='새]Me: It was ME.[/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: What? Oh, the poems? Uh... It's ok, did I tell you it bothers me? Well... It doesn't.[/FONT] [FONT='새](silence, he suddenly comes to me)[/FONT] [FONT='새]Pascal: Um... Well... You know... When I went out with Alice we had a lot of problems and all so I decided it would be better to not love anyone for the moment.[/FONT] [FONT='새]I knew my eyes were brimming up so I just nodded and started going on my way. I looked back. He was still there. He waved, then went into his house. For a few days it was sorta awkward between us then he started acting even MORE like he loved me. He was always near me, he looked at me... But when I was sad, he no longer asked me why I was sad but asked my friends. He complimented me when I did a new drawing or got a good mark on a test, sometimes writing stuff like 'Do better' for a joke. When we were looking at class photos, when my face came up he said 'Oh it's you!' so I said 'I know, it's ugly...' then he said 'I NEVER said that...'. Then, when I was listening to a sad song, he took my iPod, played 'I'm with you' and started looking at my photos with me. Once, he was using his sister's MSN account and I didn't believe it was him, and as a proof it was really him, he chose to tell me about the poems I'd given him and put a smiley face. Once, when I was sick and couldn't go to school, I saw that he had talked to me on MSN, asking me if I was sick, and asking me five times if I was there; this happened two times. Then, when we were talking about the mean English teacher, he said he wants to sit next to me because I'm good at taking notes. He also told me to not take the teacher too seriously when she screams at me, which she does a lot. Once when we were in the library, there was 'I love you' written on the wall. He asked me if it was me and I said no and ran away, and he was calling after me. Later in the day, he came over and asked me if I knew this book he had read. Once when I was going down the road with my friend, he was all the time behind us then surprised me in front of the cafe across from his house. Another time, he ran up to us and started joking around. When our teacher's computer wasn't working and he asked me to help, Pascal offered to help me. Once, there were about five girls flirting with him, but he came over to me just to talk about what his French tutor made him do. I gave him a CD for Christmas and he was absolutely fascinated by it, saying he should buy me something. In January, me, him, a guy friend and a girl friend went to an amusement park together, but he seemed sorta nervous when I was next to him on a ride. At first, to his other friends, he had said he wasn't going but then when I asked he said he didn't know, but he came anyway. I bought a ring there and showed it to him; he told me he has the same ring at his home. On MSN he asked me to share folders with him. Sometimes, he responded randomly to my comments & he started coming over to me when I played the piano in music class. He said sorry to me when I fell over although it wasn't his fault. I always write stuff like homework on my hand, and two times, when I was waving at him he seized my hand and read what I'd written. When a new boy in class started flirting with me, Pascal joked to me, 'Hey, do you like him?'. Before I could answer the flirty guy said 'Yeah she's crazy about me.' So I made a hand gesture and then Pascal was laughing, saying, 'Hah, that means she hates you, no?' Once when I almost tripped back on my feet, he put his hand on my back and stopped me from falling, then asked me if I was ok. When we did a science project in a group of four, instead of copying on his best friend, he copied my results, although they were a bit less accurate. I overheard him telling people who were saying mean things about me that I'm a kind and gentle person. Two times, when we were taking class photos at camp, he put his arm around me and his guy friend's necks. When we were having barbecue at camp in groups of four, I was with him, Stefan, and a girl friend. I was doing all the cooking, then suddenly he asked me 'Aren't you gonna eat?' so I told him I had eaten. After a moment, he told Stefan and the girl to stop eating and give the rest to me, although Stefan didn't listen to him. When the flirty guy ventured in behind me in a transparent tunnel ending in a pond, he said to my friend 'He's buggering her again... Should I go in too? But... That tunnel's too narrow... What if she falls in?' That evening he lied to Stefan that he had to go to a family reunion and came to play with me, his best friend and my best friend. He told his best friend that Stefan is a jerk, eating all the food and everything. He also told us that he doesn't hang out with Stefan after school anymore, either. The next day, my best friend told me that he had told her that he doesn't understand why I don't talk to him if I love him and that he had asked her if what I said on MSN, 'it wasn't love' was true. Once, when I was helping him during computer class, he accidentally (?) put his hand on mine, which was on the mouse. During an oral test in history, he mouthed 'Singapore' to me when I couldn't remember it. I gave him a birthday present, and he asked me when my birthday was. Then, since several days ago, he barely talks to me at all. When I'm talking to another guy, he's always talking to another girl. He doesn't say a word. He just waves when he sees me and sometimes cracks a joke or makes a comment when I say something. He sorta stares at me when I talk to his best friend, sometimes repeats a word I say... But that's about it. And there's also the matter of Stefan. Every time I so much as glance at Pascal, he chuckles. And I've noticed that Pascal never even looks at me when Stefan's next to him. Once, Stefan threw his bag at me and forced Pascal to do it too. But then, when I was painting a vase of flowers in Art class, Stefan asked Pascal to come over and see what I was doing, saying it was good. Pascal just smiled, added another flower then quickly went away. Another time, Stefan joked, 'You two would make a good couple.' When I said, 'Are you crazy?' he said, 'You're telling me I'm crazy? Go on, tell Pascal he's crazy too.' then he said that me and my friends were 'immature' to Pascal, but he didn't answer. He said a song I was listening to was horrible, but Pascal put on my earphones then started dancing around. Then during computer class he showed me the official site for our favorite book and lent me the new volume. This morning, we went up the stairs together but we didn't say a word to each other. We didn't even LOOK at each other, for that matter. Then, we had a two-week vacation in May. I asked him to go to Skate Park. At first he said he'll see if he can fit it into his schedule then he emailed me, saying, "Let's go on Friday but can Paul come with us too?" so I said "OK" coz I didn't want him thinking I was thinking of this as a date. But he didn't phone Paul. On Friday I went to the place we were supposed to meet but he wasn't there. I phoned his house and his mom told me that she had sent him shopping. That evening I went to his house with Paul and [/FONT][FONT='새]채은, but he didn't say a word to me. A few days later I went to China with my family then I received an email from Pascal. It didn't mention anything about the day we were supposed to meet but it just said, "Isabell, it's me, Pascal. I'm sending you this because it's urgent. Can you send me the research you did for the English project our team's doing? My computer got a virus and everything got deleted. Oh yeah and look at the attachment, you'll love it! Kisses, Pascal" It was a little shocking because he'd never said 'Kisses,' to me in an email before. As for the attachment it was a computer-programmed cat that's on my screen even right now. And also, he could have asked anybody else on our team; why me? And before when I sent him help with homework and stuff he never responded but today he said 'Thank you so much!! See ya' via email. After vacation, he's still barely talking to me, and Stefan keeps on teasing me subtly about me loving Pascal. During one History class we were talking about citizenships. I've lived in Canada (Pascal's home) and I liked it very much. I told the teacher as a passing comment, "I want to get the Canadian citizenship." Then the teacher said, "Well then, you can just marry Pascal!" then I was acting as if it were disgusting, and Pascal just said 'I'm going away next year." But then Stefan was saying stuff like 'HAHA what a marriage that would be! Oh my god, does she look happy. Poor Pascal' and Pascal told him to shut up. These days Pascal still doesn't talk to me much although a bit more than before. But like when we were pushing Paul into the metal boxes in the cafeteria he put his hand over mine twice...................................[/FONT] [FONT='새]I'm so confused.[/FONT]
torranceshipman Posted June 4, 2008 Posted June 4, 2008 Lol some of that post was unintentionally hilarious...I like the random parts like 'he mouthed Singapore to me' ...! If I were you I'd be more worried about the crazy English teacher that keeps shouting at you - she sounds nuts I'd say Pascal sounds pretty immature but I am guessing from your posts that you're both 15 or something, so I guess thats to be expected! Good luck tho, young love, ahhh its so cute!
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