Nevermind Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 I just had a phone chat with my parents, I helped them with a problem in thunderbird. So I opened my thunderbird. I had not used it since June 2007, because I had lost all my e-mails in a firefox bug and nothing I did could recover them. So I switched to pegasus. Now, I just click it to have something visual to guide my parents... and it's all back: The folders, most of the mails (some missing, I think). All of it. All of what he had written me, and what I had written him. All of the ****. Excerpts that say he has never loved anybody like he did. He only needed me to be happy. While he was never in love. While everything was a lie. Universe- it's not funny anymore. I deleted everything. All of it. And now..the oldest things come up again.
motive2002 Posted May 31, 2008 Posted May 31, 2008 The universe sucks like that. I recently found a bunch of IM text archives from the ex. All those sweet things she said. All the wonderful dialog. All meaningless now. I'm sure it meant something to her then, but it's all changed. It will feel just as wonderful with someone else. Someone new. It may not happen right away. You may be lonely for a while, but it will happen again. Love will resurface. The universe will seem to have guided you perfectly.
Author Nevermind Posted May 31, 2008 Author Posted May 31, 2008 I just reread one of those recovered e-mails. He wrote that he loved me like he never loved anybody else. He asked me to hold him - forever. Yet he wrote another girl, a nearly complete stranger, that he always loved his ex before me, and nobody else. :sick:/ heartbroken. motive: you give me hope. You're further ahead down the road to recovery, and walking in your footprints makes me feel less alone. Thank you.
motive2002 Posted May 31, 2008 Posted May 31, 2008 You're further ahead down the road to recovery heh, I have my good days, but also my bad ones. It's progress though. Slow.. but progress all the same. Maybe those footprints will lead us around the bend and reward us with a beautiful sunset on the horizon. Life has it's surprises.
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