motive2002 Posted May 29, 2008 Posted May 29, 2008 .. it's cold and dark out. You're hungry and lonely, when just then you see a light in a window across the alley. A figure is there waving. Inviting you in. At first you seem hesitant. What is this person's agenda? Are they friend or foe? Eventually you decide that the warmth and light of this invitation has got to be better than being out in the cold. You let your guard down a little... and decide to cautiously enter. When you're inside, it's like paradise! What you thought was going to be a modest little apartment turns out to be a huge mansion! How could it all fit from that little window from the street? It didn't look this big.. Your new host has food waiting for you. A warm blanket, and some nice company. They seem genuinely interested in whatever you want to talk about, and extend a gracious amount of empathy. You think to yourself, "Wow, this must be heaven! Have I died and gone to heaven?" You find your instincts have been fogged. How could this not be "too good to be true"? Still you can't help but bask in the warmth and comfort of your new surroundings. Then, all of the sudden before you know it, you are thrown back out into the street, and asked never to come back. You're locked out but you can still see the light in the window. It's glowing.. mocking you. There's no more invite. Nobody at the door. No figure waving in the window. Just you and the cold outside. Your hunger is back, except this time it feels like you're starving to death! and it's so cold... you can't stop shivering... This little story I made up kinda sums up how I've been feeling the past couple months. Out in the cold, fending for myself like a bum on the street. Got any spare change?
LikeCharlotte Posted May 29, 2008 Posted May 29, 2008 I just posted this in another thread but its a quote from a movie. Ill risk redundancy to help you smile. "Had to come all the way from the highway and byways of Tallahassee, Florida to MotorCity, Detroit to find my true love. If you gave me a million years to ponder, I would never have guessed that true romance and Detroit would ever go together. And til this day, the events that followed all still seems like a distant dream. But the dream was real and was to change our lives forever. I kept asking Clarence why our world seemed to be collapsing and things seemed to be getting so ****ty. And he'd say, "that's the way it goes, but don't forget, it goes the other way too." That's the way romance is... Usually, that's the way it goes, but every once in awhile, it goes the other way too." Keep up hope and get out of the cold. ((motive))
Author motive2002 Posted May 29, 2008 Author Posted May 29, 2008 Wow, I was asking for some spare change and got a $100 bill. You rock Charlotte! <3
LikeCharlotte Posted May 29, 2008 Posted May 29, 2008 Wow, I was asking for some spare change and got a $100 bill. You rock Charlotte! <3 Anytime.
orangehose Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 .. it's cold and dark out. You're hungry and lonely, when just then you see a light in a window across the alley. A figure is there waving. Inviting you in. At first you seem hesitant. What is this person's agenda? Are they friend or foe? Eventually you decide that the warmth and light of this invitation has got to be better than being out in the cold. You let your guard down a little... and decide to cautiously enter. When you're inside, it's like paradise! What you thought was going to be a modest little apartment turns out to be a huge mansion! How could it all fit from that little window from the street? It didn't look this big.. Your new host has food waiting for you. A warm blanket, and some nice company. They seem genuinely interested in whatever you want to talk about, and extend a gracious amount of empathy. You think to yourself, "Wow, this must be heaven! Have I died and gone to heaven?" You find your instincts have been fogged. How could this not be "too good to be true"? Still you can't help but bask in the warmth and comfort of your new surroundings. Then, all of the sudden before you know it, you are thrown back out into the street, and asked never to come back. You're locked out but you can still see the light in the window. It's glowing.. mocking you. There's no more invite. Nobody at the door. No figure waving in the window. Just you and the cold outside. Your hunger is back, except this time it feels like you're starving to death! and it's so cold... you can't stop shivering... This little story I made up kinda sums up how I've been feeling the past couple months. Out in the cold, fending for myself like a bum on the street. Got any spare change? Wow, nearly cried after reading this. I relate to the feeling - sometimes I felt with my ex that I was sucking happiness from him, like a vampire, because he was inherently more upbeat and vivacious than I was. Now I think - maybe it's a sign I need to be my own beacon of happiness...
borelandkaren Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 Wow, nearly cried after reading this. I relate to the feeling - sometimes I felt with my ex that I was sucking happiness from him, like a vampire, because he was inherently more upbeat and vivacious than I was. Now I think - maybe it's a sign I need to be my own beacon of happiness... Mine tried to suck the life and happiness out of me. He failed. I got away. Now it all comes back in waves. One day it will just be me full time without the glimmers of the past. Motive, sometimes, if you open up wide enough, the street can be a pretty place. Don't worry, darlin', I'm looking too. We all are. U'll find what ur after. Charlotte, you're gorgeous.
Engelskreiger Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 I definitely know where you are coming from. That story really paints a picture of how it feels, and I couldn't agree more. I don't know about you, Motive, but it almost makes me feel better that I am not alone out here in the street. I'm sorry about whatever misfortune has lead you to write that, and I don't have any good advice to give you, but I can tell you that you're not the only one, and one day, we'll all pull through. Also, I really like your signature. "I'm crying as fast as I can" really hits home. Good luck.
Trialbyfire Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 Motive, have you ever looked at it from the perspective that the empty, lonely street is a good thing? In being by yourself, away from the influence of your past relationship, you can learn to enjoy the freedom that comes from not needing to worry about other drivers wants, needs or rules. Once you're comfortable with the freedom, you can venture forth from your empty street and drive with other drivers. You might find another driver who you can cruise together with.
Author motive2002 Posted May 30, 2008 Author Posted May 30, 2008 Charlotte, you're gorgeous. You know, I've been looking at that avatar of Charlotte's for a while.. it kind of resembles Melanie Griffith. Maybe there's an Antonio Banderas in Charlotte's future
LikeCharlotte Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 You know, I've been looking at that avatar of Charlotte's for a while.. it kind of resembles Melanie Griffith. Maybe there's an Antonio Banderas in Charlotte's future My avatar is Patricia Arquette in the movie True Romance. I've been told that I look like her. I'm not bold enough to put my pics here on LS because I fear recognition. Maybe someday I will be brave. As for Antonio Banderas... yum. I am a sucker for a Spanish man. Add Cuban, Mexican, Puerto Rican, and most South or Central Americans to that list. Motive I hope you are right!
Author motive2002 Posted May 30, 2008 Author Posted May 30, 2008 Well, unfortunately I'm as white as Wonder bread. No resemblance to Banderas at all I think Patricia Arquette is really pretty!
LikeCharlotte Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 Well, unfortunately I'm as white as Wonder bread. No resemblance to Banderas at all It's a preference not a requirement. I've been known to kiss white as wonder boys. My #1 celeb crush is as white as they come. Even the Spanish (etc.) men I have dated have acted more like Wally Cleaver than Antonio.
Author motive2002 Posted May 31, 2008 Author Posted May 31, 2008 psst! The real me is in the profile. Don't click!
LikeCharlotte Posted May 31, 2008 Posted May 31, 2008 You are cute for a white guy. You're ex is crazy. I'm just kidding about preferences really. I'm not shallow like that at all. I only say it because somehow more than half of my bf's were. It's more coincidence I think. That or something is at work on a genetic level. I have absolutely no basis for either theory so I'm at a loss for explaination.
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