pickingupthepieces Posted May 28, 2008 Posted May 28, 2008 Have any of you back slided and found yourself lost all over again? So I had contact with the X, alot of contact. Now my enotions are all over the place, which I shoudl of expected. Well I didn't expect it to effect me. I figured since I hadn't seen the guy for 2 months that I was this kick ass break-up warrior and I could handle seeing him, since HE was the one that wanted to see me. Now I am questioning everything he said.... what did he really mean and what was crap. He called me this morning after work and apologized for not phoning the night before. He had told me he would phone me when he found my things, but I didn't expect it to be right away. So he couldn't find my things and said he would phone when he did find them, he said he would look for them tonight. he said I love you and that was that. The other night when he didn't call it didn't bother me because I didn't really expect him to. Now I find my self disappointed that he didn't call. I feel like such a suck for even writing this down! I just thought I had more control over my emotions. I love him, I think I always will..but at the same time I don't want to "feel" this, it makes me feel so weak. I want to be strong and I know to be strong I need to not around him...it just feels so good to have him call and want to be around me. But at the same time I don't need to feel like crap when he DOESN'T call. I don't think I will contact him because then I will feel worse. Is it right to think that when he has my stuff he will get ahold of me..on his own? Maybe if he doesn't get me my stuff after a while I should call and remind him and leave it at that? The "I love you's" just felt so good damn it! Any suggestions?
LikeCharlotte Posted May 28, 2008 Posted May 28, 2008 Have any of you back slided and found yourself lost all over again? So I had contact with the X, alot of contact. Now my enotions are all over the place, which I shoudl of expected. Well I didn't expect it to effect me. I figured since I hadn't seen the guy for 2 months that I was this kick ass break-up warrior and I could handle seeing him, since HE was the one that wanted to see me. Now I am questioning everything he said.... what did he really mean and what was crap. He called me this morning after work and apologized for not phoning the night before. He had told me he would phone me when he found my things, but I didn't expect it to be right away. So he couldn't find my things and said he would phone when he did find them, he said he would look for them tonight. he said I love you and that was that. The other night when he didn't call it didn't bother me because I didn't really expect him to. Now I find my self disappointed that he didn't call. I feel like such a suck for even writing this down! I just thought I had more control over my emotions. I love him, I think I always will..but at the same time I don't want to "feel" this, it makes me feel so weak. I want to be strong and I know to be strong I need to not around him...it just feels so good to have him call and want to be around me. But at the same time I don't need to feel like crap when he DOESN'T call. I don't think I will contact him because then I will feel worse. Is it right to think that when he has my stuff he will get ahold of me..on his own? Maybe if he doesn't get me my stuff after a while I should call and remind him and leave it at that? The "I love you's" just felt so good damn it! Any suggestions?Tap into the break up warrior. Its ok to feel sad again. It will pass just like it has before. He will bring your things if he has them. If he doesn't then remind him in a week. Be brief, be honest and don't expect to be a warrior all the time. If it is too hard to see him then say, "I'm sorry but I just can't see you right now because it I am healing. Please just drop it off" or something like that.
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