I dont understand him

[Dalcuore]

This is going to be a little long but i'll summarize it the best i can..and i would like a guy's perspective as well thank you =)

 

It started off last summer..i met my boyfriend at my work...i was really shy and was new in town..we started dating and took it slow..and it took him a month to kiss me haha...i've been in a relationship before..but i never been with someone who had the same personality traits as me..im a random..goofy...loving and sensitive person and he was too..he wrote me a poem.was there for me when i was going through a rough time..we spent a lot of time together.and then after a while he did things with his friends on fridays and i did stuff with my grandma and the few friends i had b/c i was still new in town..and i would get a little insecure when he went out and hung out with his guys and girls were around its normal i didnt know a lot of people..except for the few times i went overboard... im a very passionate person and i love giving..and i gave him a lot..i gave him all of me..was there for me when he was going through a rough time with his issues..i supported him did little things for him like post little notes under his pillow some nights..and he did things for me too...but he ended up breaking up with me in december because he wasnt ready for 'Me" he said i was too passionate and the kinda girl he could marry..that he just wanted to go out and live his life and do what he's gotta do...we lost our virginity to each other too..but even though we broke up we didnt talk for a little bit..and then it would start all over again..and we went back out...then he broke up with me again..and drama happened..b/c i wanted more than what he wanted..and he said he felt the same he just didnt want it right now..but we were still hanging out a lot and kissed cuddled watched movies as if were still together. So i would get insecure and a little needy b/c i wanted to know that he loved me too...but it came to the point i had to move back to Louisiana for personal issues..and it fustrated both of us and we fought..and then he took me to my favorite places before i moved back home and took me to watch the sunset..and then the next morning when i had to leave..we both cried..and he told me that distance wouldnt matter..and that he would see me soon and that he loved me...and gave me a key chain with our pictures..and i got confused b/c he doesnt want a girlfriend..we had taken a bunch of pictures that he said he would post and send to me..and when i went back home..i got very insecure..b/c of our "status" and i would push him about how he felt for me..b/c i was so far away..and confused...and he said i was pushing him away and that i knew how he felt and that was that..but he would get mad at me for doing something innocent...and to get me back on his little myspace he posted he wanted to get laid..and was going out with sexy girls..and he claims he was joking. i sent him a box with homemade card and some other silly things for him..and i feel like i give too much for someone who doesnt want a relationship wiht me. and now he's showing off all his little girl friends back in florida in pictures..and we havent spoken to each other in about a week..b/c this just all started...and i thing is immature.. i even told him to go out and have fun and that i apologize for being so insecure and needy it that it was just a hard situation right now and i said that one day i hoped he found the right person and he just got ticked and said that was soo f-ing annoying that he didnt want to and wasnt going to find someone else..yet..he's doing wat he's doing..i understand for him to be fustrated with me..but at the same time...i feel like..b/c im all the way in louisiana is like forget me...he says i get mad too easily..and i honestly dont think i do..he just hurts me sometimes...he doesnt want a girlfriend yet did wat he did..and now he's just not talking to me and when he does he's irritable..so i havent talked to him since. and it hurts b/c we shared so much..