kizik Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 Hey LSers, I feel like I've got no one. My ex was my best friend. I find myself scrolling through my phone, making calls to people I don't know very well, and not getting answers most the time. Anyone wanna chat? I just wanna make human connections. Tell me what you do, what you like, etc. Maybe where you live. If you're not interested in having that info for all to see, you can email me: [email protected] I'm trying to reach out. This is the loneliest I've ever been. I have no one rooting for me, or caring about the pain I'm in.
BiAxident Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 Not a problem.. Me? I teach guitar for a "living". I started playing when I was about 13 (I'm 28 now). My father used to play, so he showed me a couple of things and bought me a book with some chords in it. I'm certainly not a "natural". I got good enough to teach basically because it was an activity I enjoyed doing, that I could work on at my own pace. I'm still not a very good "musician" all things considered. I took lessons for two years, then studied music at a local community college for one year. My dream was to be in a band and tour and all that jazz, but I never felt I was creative enough to put anything worthwhile together. I enjoy poker (esp. hold em'), NBA basketball (go Pistons!), and sadly, that's about it right now. I find it hard to get enthusiastic about much in life, especially after losing my GF two months ago. So, I spend a lot of time in bed on the internet (like right now). I have friends, but most of them are either married or alcoholics or I just don't see them except a few times a year. My mother passed of a heart attack five years ago, my father lives at home and pretty much has no friends and works a dead-end job. Soon, I'll be moving back home where I will help support him. I'm not really in pain per se, I've always felt rather apathetic and depressed, so this is nothing new. I'm grateful for what I've got and fearful for what I'll lose. That's me!
Author kizik Posted May 26, 2008 Author Posted May 26, 2008 Thanks for sharing yourself, Biax. I am into guitar as well. Started playing when I was 12; 24 now. Self-taught, play left-handed. Not only that, I play a right-handed guitar, left-handed. Not restrung. Can you say, FREAK? I used to be insecure about playing like that, but now I embrace the uniqueness. I too enjoy poker, but quit three months ago after spending all my free time on PokerStars. I didn't like who I was after receiving bad beats. My pocket kings called all-in by some jack*ss, holding A-3, who spikes an ace on the flop... grrr. I'm sorry to hear about your mom. I hope your dad's doing ok. Your job sounds f*cking awesome. What a way to make a living!
foxh1234 Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 Hey LSers, I feel like I've got no one. My ex was my best friend. I find myself scrolling through my phone, making calls to people I don't know very well, and not getting answers most the time. Anyone wanna chat? I just wanna make human connections. Tell me what you do, what you like, etc. Maybe where you live. If you're not interested in having that info for all to see, you can email me: [email protected] I'm trying to reach out. This is the loneliest I've ever been. I have no one rooting for me, or caring about the pain I'm in. Hi Kizik, I just sent you a short email and included a couple of short recordings I made on guitar. I have played for 25 years and love it. It has really helped me to play during this tough time. I hope you like them.
BiAxident Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 Your job sounds f*cking awesome. What a way to make a living! When I get a student who actually wants to learn, shows up for each lesson, pays on time, and has musical tastes that actually need to be cultivated, it's pretty awesome. Unfortunately, most of the time I'm either baby-sitting kids, waiting around for students who dont show up, tracking down late payments, or teaching Green Day to someone who will only need 2 months worth of lessons to reach their musical goals. Still, it beats a cashier job. As for your playing on a right handed guitar that isn't restrung, I think that may have given you an advantage when you started. All the tricky movements are in the left hand on guitar. The right hand is just a piece of meat that goes up and down.
borelandkaren Posted May 27, 2008 Posted May 27, 2008 :)I worked in cosmetics when my son was young and when he was about 7 I met a concretor with whom I entered a relationship. He used to bag me out about what I did and that I didn't make very good money, so I thought I'd beat him at his own game. I went to work with a married :)couple that he worked with and learned how to be a steel-fixer (underfloor reinforcing for concrete but u probably knew that!). Nearing the end of that relationship I went to work with a crew that did steel and concrete and I met my future partner. We went into business together and I learned how to do the concrete side of things, as well as the steel. He was also (apparently) a shed builder, so I learned that trade as well and also how to do fencing, build retaining walls, etc. All of this has been to no avail, though because now that we are separated, he kept the business (even though it was all in my name) and where I have moved the concretors attitudes are very "blokey" and they are not willing to take me on. Also, though, I'm a bit sore. All the years of carrying heavy weights, etc has left me with really sore forearms (lifting up shed walls is pretty intense) and I'm kinda thinking that I need to take on a new vocation. I'm also in the same situation as you that I had no-one but him and I go through my mobile too and wonder who I can call. I'll write to you, darlin, cos I'm very lost myself and even if we're cyber, we all need friends. Take care and don't let it eat at you. Make sure you get outside and feel life on your skin. I try to make sure I walk for at least 2 hours everyday. It's keeping me sane!!!
BiAxident Posted May 27, 2008 Posted May 27, 2008 I have played for 25 years and love it. It has really helped me to play during this tough time. I hope you like them. Well, you've got me beat by about 10 years. Are their any cover pieces you've found that really helped during the tough times? I more into solo stuff, not guitar solos but solo instrumental acoustic stuff. I've started working on "A Map of the World" by Pat Metheny. Wonderful piece. "Sunburst" by Andrew York is nice, too.
earthling Posted May 27, 2008 Posted May 27, 2008 Your situation is similar to mine right now. It's been almost two months now and the loneliness is becoming unbearable. I write and paint and draw all day, but it only helps so much. Friends are really supportive, taking me out and hanging out for half the day. But they can't be with me 24/7. Thinking about getting a cat, but the manager is a nazis. All sorts of fees and rules. It's almost too much of a hassle. And I'm not financially stable enough to go out and start being with someone new while I'm still not happy with myself. Been online for the past two weeks just trying to find anyone that's willing to listen. Loneliness seems to be my worst fear besides height. I find on bad days when there are no plans and everyone's busy, I just want to sleep all day and get back to the weekdays as quickly as possible and go to work. Working is better than staying at home and moping around. Memorial day is the loneliest day in recent memories.
foxh1234 Posted May 27, 2008 Posted May 27, 2008 Well, you've got me beat by about 10 years. Are their any cover pieces you've found that really helped during the tough times? I more into solo stuff, not guitar solos but solo instrumental acoustic stuff. I've started working on "A Map of the World" by Pat Metheny. Wonderful piece. "Sunburst" by Andrew York is nice, too. Hi, I love to play Led Zep stuff as well as Nick Drake, Hendrix, James Taylor, and so many more great artists. I also record alot of original stuff. It is a great outlet especially during this hard time in my life.
sedgwick Posted May 27, 2008 Posted May 27, 2008 I live in NYC. I'm a writer editing my first book, which will be published in '09 (If I ever finish the damn thing!) I'm in a dance company as well. I have two cats who are my children -- one of them I found when he was just a few hours old and bottle-fed, so we have a particular bond. I love to knit and crochet. I have an MFA in performance art. I'm covered in tattoos, and plan to keep going. I'm divorced, but my ex-husband is my best friend. My other closest friend is the woman who tattoos me. I'm very fortunate in that I have a lot of talented, wonderful people in my life. I have a close-knit group of friends who really care about me. I'm very lucky in that respect. I've traveled to a different part of Mexico every year for the past three years and hope to live there someday. My current life dream, however, is to buy an apartment in NYC. I'm envious of all you musicians. My ex gave as his only reason for dumping me the fact that he's a musician and I'm not.
northstar1 Posted May 29, 2008 Posted May 29, 2008 Hey Kizik just saw your note - and i've read your story and i feel your pain. how are you coping man?
Author kizik Posted May 29, 2008 Author Posted May 29, 2008 Hey north, thanks for asking. I'm not sure. Each day is different. I am not getting "better" every day, nor worse. Some days I feel strong, others weak and hurt. Today I'm kind of angry, and proud of myself. Thanks for reading my story too!
northstar1 Posted May 29, 2008 Posted May 29, 2008 no worries mate - i am going through a simliar thing right now - so if you ever want to bounce coping ideas or vent, let me know and we can email.
Author kizik Posted May 29, 2008 Author Posted May 29, 2008 That's funny, Y. That is the equivalent of how I play, for a right-hander.
Author kizik Posted May 29, 2008 Author Posted May 29, 2008 no worries mate - i am going through a simliar thing right now - so if you ever want to bounce coping ideas or vent, let me know and we can email. North- [email protected] I'm gonna learn up about your story later tonight. -k
northstar1 Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 North- [email protected] I'm gonna learn up about your story later tonight. -k Cool - sent ya note earlier. Peace.
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