serendip Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 I've been doing complete NC for 2 mths now. It's been great. She text me 3 weeks ago...asking how I was and telling me she was thinking of me. But I never responded and it felt good. It's been a year since we broke up. So yesterday I was on a hike...it was beautiful weather and the hike was amazing. I was taking a sip of water from my Nalgene bottle(the ex bought it for me a couple of years ago-I don't attach any emotional value to it) when one of the girls I was hiking with told me how there's been tons of articles about Nalgene bottles(along with other plastic bottles) being really bad. So I looked it up on line this morning...and there are a lot of articles dating back to 2004 talking about Nalgene bottles. I sent the articles to all my friends(in case they didn't know) from my email account. I thought about sending this info to my ex(who is a health care professional but doesn't know since she bought me the Nalgene bottle and she has several herself). Anyway I ended up sending her the info directly from the source itself (newspaper article) instead of my email account. I just made up a email address ([email protected]) as the sender...and wrote " Thought you would like to know." in the comments section. I suppose she might think it's me but not sure. I thought she should know because it is dangerous. Myself I'm just going to continue with NC(or start NC again I guess). Anyway here is a portion of the article I sent. Made from Lexan polycarbonate resin and marketed through Nalgene Outdoor Products, Lexan was envisioned to be the ideal material for water bottles due to its durability and the way the material of the bottle didn’t hold any odors or flavors to distort the taste of the liquid being stored in the bottle. A study that involved researching birth defects and developmental abnormalities that caused miscarriages in mice raised the suspicions on all polycarbonate plastics. The study revealed a sudden increase in aneuploidy, a defect consisting of abnormal loss or gain of chromosomes, which in humans could possibly lead to miscarriages or disorders such as Down Syndrome. The spontaneous jump in mouse aneuploidy was traced back to a lab worker, who used a strong detergent to clean the mice cages and water bottles. The effects of the detergent resulted in the plastic attaching itself to bisphenol, a chemical that mimics the female hormone estrogen. Research has shown that low BPA levels have had an adverse effect on prostate development, tumors, breast tissue development, sperm count and enlargement of fat cells in the body.
ChaseYng2005 Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 Perhaps a platonic relationship can be created with her.
Author serendip Posted May 26, 2008 Author Posted May 26, 2008 Perhaps a platonic relationship can be created with her. No, that's not possible...too much damage(infidelity on her part and me not being able to walk away from her). I guess I am still concern with her well being but I didn't want her to know that(thus sent directly from article with bogus email address). I'm not looking to initiate contact(I still have some healing to do) and I'm not looking for a reason to contact since I don't need one(I ignored her last attempt on contact). But maybe it was a bad idea to send the article warning her...b/c it would just put her back in my mind space. Now I'm kind of wondering if she would be concern with my well being(considering she bought me the bottle) if she knew about it. Will she send me the article since she doesn't know it's me(will not for sure anyway) who sent it. LOL...it's all just silly noise going in my head.
0hpenelope Posted May 27, 2008 Posted May 27, 2008 I wonder about that myself. I lost track of how long I've been on my NC with Lawrence, but I'm still as affected by him whenever I'm reminded of him. The numbness - the very welcomed numbness - is finally finally settling in. Slowly but surely. Also, I gotta say that I really like the article. All of the science jargon that I saw throughout got me really excited! I'm a Science major and I'm fighting a good fight with Organic Chemistry right now (keep your friends close and your enemies closer, right?). When you mentioned the plastic bottles, all I could think about is the chemical reactions taking place between the water molecules and the molecular compound making up the material. Ending the nerdiness. I hope those thoughts stop playing themselves in your head soon enough. I know they drive me crazy when I have them... Fortunately, O.Chem practice problems keep my mind occupied nowadays.
Author serendip Posted May 27, 2008 Author Posted May 27, 2008 But maybe it was a bad idea to send the article warning her... Definitely a bad idea....something as benign as forwarding an article from a newspaper (anonymous source) warning her about Nalgene bottles set me back a bit. Last night I couldn't fall asleep because I was thinking about things...things I already dealt with. Breaking NC (sort of...she might suspect it's me but does not know for sure) just brought back garbage into my head. Also after a year(since the breakup)...I shouldn't care about her well being especially when there was infidelity on her part. So stick to NC boys and girls.
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