MsCrazy Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 Thank you so much for the replies! I LOVE this website and the people on here. Too bad we couldn't have a LS party. Anyways... TeaLeafBud thanks for telling me I am doing the right thing. Just right now at exactly this time last year I was thinking about all the nice things my ex did for me and I started second guessing myself. Our relationship was toxic. It was either really really GREAT and he was super sweet or it was completely horrible and like living in hell! He was so verbally abusive! He would tell me my family and friends suck, I'm too poor, he would get mad if I didn't go to the gym (he never went either) he would put me down so much that through time I fell out of love with him. We would get into these explosive fights where he would tell me to the get the F**K out and I would pack up all my s*** and he then would apologize hours later so I would then have to unpack all my s*** I know this is unhealthy and no matter how many chances I gave him it just kept getting worse. So I need to remind myself that he is not the one for me. He doesn't know how to love. He pushed me once and I always feared him when we fought. I know there are some great memories but I need to remember that the bad outweighed the good. Anyone relate?
Jmina Posted May 26, 2008 Posted May 26, 2008 I Really look up to you for taking that step of making it for yourself, taking that step of really heading towards what WILL work for you. DOnt doubt your decision for one moment, you stand by what you have done, and just feel your emotions. dont act on them, start creating yourself, you dont need to find yourself as what you are looking for is already inside, it just needs creating. find what you love and do it. tap into your creative side, being creative forces you to be in the moment and when you are in the moment you are never hurting. you can do this, you really can. just make it about you and how exciting, and wonderful YOUR life can be. you have so much to look forward to you have no idea yet. Be strong by not acting on your feelings, be spiritual by feelings all your feelings, growing and getting in touch with you, and be kind to yourself. Keep posting!!! all the best Jmina p.s there is no right or wrong. however there is what works, and what doesnt work. your relationship did not work for either of you, im sure you didnt like who you were when you were with him. you are now choosing a path that will give you some good lessons to learn about what works for you. and when it works, it feels right.
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