thebam Posted May 28, 2008 Posted May 28, 2008 Just got a text from my wife reads, "how are you anyway?" trouble here is i cannot break contact, i cannot delete her number because of the situation with my Daughter......Blog going well for my charity event so its keeping me busy at least! All i replied was "Im okay thanks for asking" i could not tell her the truth.
Author thebam Posted May 30, 2008 Author Posted May 30, 2008 Things have gotten alot worse now, yesterday my wife decided that she does not want to sign the contract giving me 50% access to my daughter.She wants to take this to court where i know i will walk away with at the best 30% access, at the best!. This woman has killed my unborn baby and now is trying to take the only thing i have left in this world from me.I am on a completely different plane of existence right now, my mind is breaking up and my body has had enough.
Prodigal Princess Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 Not that my opinion matters... but I think it stops becoming a parasite who's existence is up to the mother the minute it is born. I'm all for testing of fetuses and subsequent late abortions to eliminate any kids with severe handicaps or a high genetic pre-disposition to such. (at the discretion of the mother). and yes, I'm aware that no one on this board will share my views. I agree with you 100% Enema.
Prodigal Princess Posted May 30, 2008 Posted May 30, 2008 Things have gotten alot worse now, yesterday my wife decided that she does not want to sign the contract giving me 50% access to my daughter.She wants to take this to court where i know i will walk away with at the best 30% access, at the best!. This woman has killed my unborn baby and now is trying to take the only thing i have left in this world from me.I am on a completely different plane of existence right now, my mind is breaking up and my body has had enough. I dont have any useful advice for you, as I cannot even imagine being in your position. It must be absolutely horrendous and it is completely undeserved. Im a lawyer and I know what a torturous process litigation is. At this stage you should concentrate on getting the best legal representation possible; a good lawyer will always try their best to get an out of court settlement as Courts on this issue are notoriously archaic-minded. Good luck to you.
Chrome Barracuda Posted June 11, 2008 Posted June 11, 2008 Yeah, either Dr.Phil or Steve Wilkos. If i aint about your current kid. Stay NC with her, there's no need for communication even texting. Dont gve her the friendship she craves. let her feel what she has brought on herself.
Darth Vader Posted June 15, 2008 Posted June 15, 2008 Call Dr Phil. I'm not kidding.. Or perhaps Oprah, but, not Jerry Springer!
Gunny376 Posted June 15, 2008 Posted June 15, 2008 The thoughts you are having would be normal. As long as you are not planning any 'events' to accomplish this. When I was suicidial, it wasn't like one day it just happened. Thoughts of it came creeping in, but it was thoughts of my family that kept those thoughts at bay. Then, over time even that didn't stop the thoughts. These thoughts turned into me doing reckless things, such as in my car, passing on double lines (which means do not pass), to looking at huge trees on my way to work and back to see which ones I can hit that would take me out. I let these thoughts continue and it got to the point where before I knew it, I had it planned out. I wrote the suicide letters and was planning on shooting myself. I had the date picked out when I was going to do it. That morning I woke up in tears because I knew what laid ahead of me. It wasn't that I didn't feel loved, it was that I didn't feel hope for the future. I needed something that I could latch onto, however small it was. The thoughts of my family couldn't even do it. I knew that this was a pivotal point, either I was going to commit suicide that day or I was going to become determined that I was going to push myself out of this. Thinking that morning I realized that as long as my one friend would continue to listen to me, then there has to be some hope that at least above all else, I was being heard. This depression/suicidal thoughts went on for 6 months. Anti-depressants didn't help either, to me they don't help the problem when you are in big relationship issues. I believe individual counseling may help you, it's understandable that you are afraid when your little girl won't be around, because then you really have to deal with the lonliness and the demons of what really has happened. As for other women, you are not clearly ready to pursue that. I think your friends mean well, but they truly don't understand what you have gone through. Continue to make short term goals for yourself and to keep talking. I wouldn't say you will ever totally get over this, but you will find ways to cope with it better. Like most of your posts, that's an "all-day-strong-post" ~ "Jay", and I've not seen the subject breached too much on here nor in the divorce and seperation section ~ but suiciding yourself does cross the mind of some when going through this jumbled mess ~ and I for one appreciate you breaching the subject! And what needs to be said and fully understood is that if your sucidial ~ your potentially homocidial. I saw on MSNBC "Lock-up" a guy that's on deathrow in TN for taking out his wife and three kids. And I thought "Such a waste of Life!" Me? Back in the day when I was going through it? I called a friend to come get me and checked myself into the pysch ward of the Naval Hospital, because I was seriously contemplating carving up some young, dumb, stupid, out for a piece of quick easy @ss Marine Lance Corporal. I wasn't suicidial ~ I was homocidial, and there's not a day that goes by that I'm not grateful and thankful I didn't kill that young, dumb, stupid SOB! But something made me reach for the phone and reach out, call and say, "Don, come get me! I need your help!" As bad as it was, it could have ended up worse! :lmao: I look back on it now, and think? What were you thinking?
Darth Vader Posted June 21, 2008 Posted June 21, 2008 That's a Manly, or rather, a Spartan thing to do! Especially when the military looks down on someone who says they need pshyc. help, for whatever the reason, I've seen some things on the news recently about guys in Iraq going through troubles over there and when they come home. It wasn't the best news to find out, it's almost as though the military doesn't want to deal with the issue/s.
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