Robbed Posted June 5, 2008 Posted June 5, 2008 Guess what guys? We're going out to lunch! Big deal right? Yeah, I'm nervous as all get-out...she's been the persistent...wow. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to go "gaa-gaa," I'm just so intrigued that she really wants to share some time with me. It's just lunch ok? just lunch, but I think she's just as excited as I am. Wish me the best out there. THIS is a fantastic girl. And I forgot to log in a couple of weeks ago to tell you that one evening when I went over to deliver a product to her, she spilled her guts almost to share some personal things with me. I was really floored that she would open up like that. So I'm interested in hearing more, I guess with most women the more you listen the more you have their attention. Am I correct or just buggin'?
Author Robbed Posted June 8, 2008 Author Posted June 8, 2008 Guess what guys?.......We wnet to lunch, it was nice...but she revealed that she was a lesbian. What a frickin' trip. So what do you think I did? Played it off like it was no big deal, but in reality ... it is a big deal...to me! This girl is so frickin' beautiful and all this time I find out she's gay. What a big frickin' trip. She's messed up in the head man. Anyway, I'll be her friend, that what she wants. And today I asked her what about me made her feel comfortable to share as much as she did, she responded "she didn't know, she just felt she could." I've known a girl at one time who was a former lesbian, but she changed her life totally and became a born-again believer. This is the first time since that time that I've met a girl as beautiful as this and found out she was gay. Gezzzz. This is baffiling.
J2FT1 Posted June 8, 2008 Posted June 8, 2008 Guess what guys?.......We wnet to lunch, it was nice...but she revealed that she was a lesbian. What a frickin' trip. So what do you think I did? Played it off like it was no big deal, but in reality ... it is a big deal...to me! This girl is so frickin' beautiful and all this time I find out she's gay. What a big frickin' trip. She's messed up in the head man. Anyway, I'll be her friend, that what she wants. And today I asked her what about me made her feel comfortable to share as much as she did, she responded "she didn't know, she just felt she could." I've known a girl at one time who was a former lesbian, but she changed her life totally and became a born-again believer. This is the first time since that time that I've met a girl as beautiful as this and found out she was gay. Gezzzz. This is baffiling. My first reaction was... but that's mean. I really, really, feel for you, bro. Dang, man what a fricken curve ball, huh? WOW...seriously. I was really shocked after reading the second post. Back to the drawing board.
Pedigree Posted June 8, 2008 Posted June 8, 2008 That was bloody hilarious, man. Look at the positives, you're her friend not because she doesn't see you that way but because she doesn't see any man that way.
J2FT1 Posted June 8, 2008 Posted June 8, 2008 That was bloody hilarious, man. Look at the positives, you're her friend not because she doesn't see you that way but because she doesn't see any man that way. Dude, be real, there are really no positives:lmao::lmao:.
Author Robbed Posted June 8, 2008 Author Posted June 8, 2008 Optimism is a good thing. If I showed you a picture of this darling girl, you wouldn't believe it either. She has long beautiful black hair, she's either of the latin culture or American-Indian culture (doesn't really matter to me, and I've never asked her), she's around 5'5 or 5'6, gorgeous sun tan, pretty feet, pretty legs, very, very intelligent, very articulate and seemingly very practical. Ok, I'm not hung up on looks, but I thought I'd paint the real picture of her (not my imagination)...this darling is sweet as the day is long. Go figure. When I think about it I just shake my head. I'm a carmel brown guy and she really likes me. She's trusting me, she felt that I would not be judgmental and you know what guys, I won't be. She did mention that she was not the person she used to be, but I'm just tripping over the whole matter. She says she's the same person whether she's with a man or with a woman... I was like (what?????). Well this you should know, I haven't been racing after her even after finding out the news, but I was sure thinking if there was a chance to get close to her and cuddle, hug, build a little chemistry then I would take it slow with her, let her get to know me, lean on me a bit. I am dead serious guys, she is an absolutely fantastic girl. Our emails are sporadic so it's not like we've been talking everyday, every week. It took us forever to just get together to talk and share. So this is a delimma for me because I'm not gay, I'm 100% man, love women, love their femininity, softness and so forth. IS she soft? Oh yeah, she's soft, and she smells good and looks terrific. We've hugged a few times, but not with real long hugs...although I'm hoping sometime soon we'll get a chance to be alone outside of the work scene to talk, and of course you know I'm going to initiate a few hugs, then a longer hug, then a hold. I do want to kiss her, I want to feel her lips against mine...look in her eyes, hold her and just ask a few more questions while softly embracing her. I don't think I could go any further than this because there's a lot to consider and feelings do play a big part with this darling of a girl. So I think it may not be best to do all the hugging and kissing and holding....I think that would trigger a few signals. But you know, maybe she's trying to change...??? just guys....but she did say to me that most guys are jerks and she didn't feel like I was. This is not a hard thing to choose, but I think it would be better to just remain friends, keep the distance. I really don't see her changing much since she's already experienced sexuality with a woman...just not something I think I'd like to enable as a close relationship with each other. It just too weird to even contemplate, too unbelievably unreal. What a wake up call for me. This is weird for me to even talk about, I mean the lesbian thing...I wasn't raised with this type of influence or persuasion...that lifestyle is most definitely a choice. The power of choice is one of the greatest gifts that we as people could have ever been given. No one is born gay, that's ridiculous. You're conceived between a man and a woman, you're born either male or female, (there is no in-between sexual birth) if there was why isn't being gay a definitive gender? There's only male and female. There are no gay animals, insects, bugs, wildlife, sea animals, so forth and so on...I think you see where I'm going. A person has to decide that he or she is gay for whatever reason they feel is justifiable. That's not my choice and never will be. I feel my obligation to my friend is to sincerely pray for her. Gezzzz, my heart is just bleeding over here, but I'll get over it. She's a person, she has value, she has worth, she has feelings....I just want to know what occurred in her earlier life to make her adopt this type of lifestyle. Man....this is really something else. You know if she senses that I'll feel different about her, I believe she'll put me into the same category as possibly most of the guys that she may have met before. Think this will happen? SOme of you are probably saying "yeah if you change man, only if you change your attitude toward her." I'll try not too, but after you find out something factual (straight from the horses mouth and not heresay) human nature is to naturally understand the truth and make a personal assessment. Well I could go on and on, but just thought I'd put this out there and get it of my chest.
Pedigree Posted June 8, 2008 Posted June 8, 2008 If I showed you a picture of this darling girl, you wouldn't believe it either. She has long beautiful black hair, she's either of the latin culture or American-Indian culture (doesn't really matter to me, and I've never asked her), she's around 5'5 or 5'6, gorgeous sun tan, pretty feet, pretty legs, very, very intelligent, very articulate and seemingly very practical. Ok, I'm not hung up on looks, but I thought I'd paint the real picture of her (not my imagination)...this darling is sweet as the day is long. I think I understand your pain .
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