Nevr4Get Posted April 8, 2008 Posted April 8, 2008 I think I have a gazillion issues going on but this is just one of them.. yet one of the most important.. Ok, first off, I looked wayyy younger my whole life and it's really shaped my personality. I think I have that look about me like guys in the 18-24 year range, and now I'm 34. I do and can talk and hang with people my age. Do it all the time. There's coworkers, and I got older sisters all in their 30's and 40's so I hang with them and for a while was roomates with their friends. But I can't get past my looks.. it's not that I look oddly young, it's just that I feel like I can't really dress and socialize as a 'thrity-something' because it just don't feel right to me. It's purely a preference, I don't agonize over it. Cause I have this tiny frame, I'm hella short, and my face hasn't aged since I was 21 except I see signs of wrinkles and my hair is gettin all blehh. So I know how stupid this sounds, and like something so easy to get over. But it honestly isn't. And like I said, I'm not devastated over this, it's more of a preference. But it's a preference that I have to weigh the pros and cons.. cause on the downside is I have no friends anymore. On the upside is I don't have that icky feeling about myself, and feel kinda free--and happy when I'm alone. I used to date a lot to fill the voids, but as I get older, the pool of women to choose from is becoming nonexistant cause I can't be dating these 23 year olds forever.. in fact I'd say I can't now. My mind is my age but my body is like I'm 23. It's really hard, I know I can live a good life but I seriously can't get over my self-image.
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